Fallen Spider [Irondad Spiderson]

Chaprer Six-PTSD(2)

It had been a couple of days since May's death and Peter decided to say nothing to anyone about that.
All was well at the moment. At least it seemed(peter kept his thoughts to himself).

Everyone was having a good time for the most part. The avengers were watching a movie in the family room. Peter was in between Natasha and Tony. With the couch arm on the other side of Tony and Bruce on the other side of nat. Clint and bucky were hidden in a pile of pillows, blankets, and bean bags. Only their faces showing while Steve sat on top of them. Sadly Stephen had left before the movie had started.

Of course, Steve had picked an action movie for the team to watch and everyone was enjoying it. "POP TARTS," Thor yells coming back from the store. Then he sat down on the ground holding three boxes of chocolate pop tarts ready to eat them all. Then the movie got to a part very loud.
"Boom" Tony began to panic, memories coming back to him.
"N-no" he whispered not loud enough for anyone to hear.
"BOOM"
"NO STOP!" Tony yelled pulling himself into the smallest he could be on the couch.
"M-mr. Stark? Oh no, what's happening?" Peter knew but he didn't want the rest of the avengers to know about his incident the other night.
"What's going on?" Steve asked looking at Peter. He knew about Tony's past and was trying to tell Peter to make an excuse. Lucky for him Peter already had that planned.
"Guys, I'm gonna go put Mr. Stark in bed, he has a really bad headache from pulling an all-nighter last night" the teen lied.
Using his spider power he picked up the broken man and carried him back to his room. Steve followed.
"Mr. Stark it's gonna be okay, I get what you're going through," the boy said.
"What?" Steve asked.
"Um, fuck?" That was all he said before slipping into The master bedroom and laying Tony on the bed. "Oh, Mr. Stark. It's gonna be okay" Peter said, very worried.
"SIR REMEMBER DEEP BREATHS. IF YOU KEEP HYPERVENTILATING YOU'RE GOING TO PASS OUT" FRIDAY said.
"Tony! Tony looked at me!" Rogers said. It's gonna be okay. I dont quite understand what your going through right now but I can assure you you're gonna be okay."
"Mr. Stark, I know it hurts. I know all the memories are flooding your head and reminding you of the bad times, but you have to remember the good times. Hey if you have to, think about all the times you've gotten to yell at me for being an idiot!"Peter said nearly in tears. "F-FRIDAY, Call Pepper Potts," Peter said with a shaky voice.

"Hello? Tony are you okay? I'm at a meeting right now" a familiar voice said.
"Um Miss Potts, this is Peter... Mr. Stark is having a severe breakdown right now from bomb noises on the TV. Can you help?"
"Oh God...um lay him down, stroke his hair, and hold his hand. Tell him he's going to be okay and have Friday remind him to control his breathing off and on. Sometimes Tony is able to hear you. Other times he's too deep in distress to hear. Remind him of where he is and the people he's surrounded by...I'm so sorry you had to deal with this Pete"

Peter laid down next to his mentor and slowly began to stroke his hair, holding his hand. Peter of course felt very awkward doing this to someone he thought of as his father figure but decided it's better than letting Tony suffer alone.
"I'm gonna go add to your excuse downstairs" Rogers grumbled leaving the room.

"Mr. Stark, you're gonna be okay. I hope you can hear me. I know it's hard. But right now you're at the compound surrounded by the avengers who love you. Of course, they don't love you like family. After all, you are family" Peter slightly smiled at his choice of words. "Pepper misses you you know, she'll be back soon too. Only a few days."
Tony began to calm down and loosened his grip on the bed sheets until he was just laying there watching peter. Peter looked at Tony and sat up, embarrassed.
"M-mr. Stark, how come you never told anyone?" Tony's mood went from calm to defensive real quick.
"What about you? YOU never told anyone either!"
"I-i was scared"
"Well so was I," Tony said standing up, pulling off his coat, and putting it on a hook. Peter's eyes went wide and tears threatened at his eyes. Tony noticed and instantly panicked, slipping his coat back on. He forgot he was wearing a tank top and the scars on his shoulders were showing.

"Mr. Stark..."Peter said in tears now.
"I-" he ran over to the boy and held him tight.
"Pete, oh Pete. They're old. Very old. You know you were really young then"
"Why would you- why?" Peter began to feel guilty at the fact Tony was admitting all this to him.
"I was dying, you know Peter. Back around a little before I saved you at the Stark Expo. A-and sometimes i-i wanted it to happen faster" Tony felt miserable seeing the kid in tears because of him. "I'm sorry, I've never done anything like that since then you know..."
"That's goo-" no not now. Air. He needed air. He felt like the room was closing in on him. Tony noticed the boy's expression and began to worry.
"Kid are you alright?"Tony asked major guilt settling on his chest.
"I'm air, outside. I need to go outside" peter said before walking out of the room then running to his. Slamming the door and walking to his window balcony. The guilty youth leaned his back against the ledge and slide down to sit with his legs pulled against him. He heard a knock on his sliding glass window door thing and looked up to see Tony there, then looked back down. Ignoring him.
Tony walked onto the balcony anyway and put his hands on the rail, looking into the cool night.
"You know I don't mean to be so cold all the time".
"..." peter didn't reply. He wasn't angry at his mentor, simply was just struggling with the massive weight of guilt on his chest. He had upset Tony, something he never meant to do.
"*sigh* kid, I care about you, I'm coldest to those I care about because I'm too scared to show them how I feel, they'll think I'm weak."
"You're lying," Peter said.
"I-um" Tony was taken aback by Peter's words.
"You told me how you feel but you're still the strongest person I know"
Tony smiled and reached his hand down "c'mon kid, let's go watch a movie" peter took his hand a let the der person help him up.
"You know what, Banner might be a little stronger because he turns into a big muscle dude. Oh and thor he is a God after all" peter smiled.
Tony pretended to scoff "I'm offended" Tony laughed and Peter laughed with him.

When the pair got in the family room everyone looked towards them. "Hey man, how's the fever and headache?" Clint asked.
"Um, I'm better now thanks to Peter and Rogers. I need to tell you guys something..." Tony walked towards the front of the room and stood up straight.

"I um, the loud sounds from the TV, they um, they" Tony felt an extreme amount of anxiety settle down on him and he began to shake a little and struggle for breath. Instead of hiding it, he let his family see this side of him.
He took a deep breath and Peter gave him a thumbs up and a cheeky smile "the sounds from the um, TV, the bombs noises set off my um PTSD. It reminded me of being captured in Afghanistan when they tried to force me to make things for them... I had a mental breakdown,  by far worse than I've ever had. Thanks to Pete I'm better now. Thanks for covering for me Steve but Peter convinced me it's better to tell you guys for me and you, then to hide it." He took a shaky breath then nodded "that is all"
Everyone ran up to him and embraced him in a group hug, starting with Peter. After about 30 seconds Peter slipped on one of his web-shooters from his pocket that was there from previous petrol. He aimed it up and pulled himself to the ceiling. Everyone looked at him questioning.
"Um, I have to pee," he said blushing. Everyone broke out in laughter as he quickly made his way to his bathroom.

After using the restroom Peter looked down at his sleeves and sighed. The pressure from the hug had reopened his cuts. After wrapping them he sighed again, once again feeling the guilt settle on his chest. Wish I could tell him, but I could never without being hated...

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Word count:1510
Yayyy longest chapter. Hope you people who don't even read this enjoy lol