F1 one shots

♡14. Lando Norris

14. This isn't working out.
Requested by wondxrwxll
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There he is again.
Gaming.

He is amazing, but can also be so frustrating at times.

I get it.
He has a career in F1.
But he also has a girlfriend.
And I'm begining to think he only sees me as someone to complain to, and then leave on the weekends that he has races.

I know we agreed to keep our relationship silent, but I feel like he is embarrassed to have me as his girlfriend.

And I dont want that. Not for me, not for him. It isnt fair for him to have to carry me around like dead weight if he doesnt love me, and it's not fair for me to have to be with someone who doesn't want me.

I need to see how he feels.
The only thing worse than being with someone who doesn't love you back is being with someone and not knowing if they love you or not.

This is going to hurt, but I just need to bite the bullet and ask.

"Lando, if you don't love me, just tell me and end my suffering." I say as I sigh and look at him gaming over the noise of his gaming console.

"What? Hold on. I'm almost done the game." Lando said.

I roll my eyes and sit at the table.

10 minutes passed.

He is still gaming.

Another 10 minutes.

He finally stopped now.

He comes over to the table and sits down across from me.

"What's up Y/N? " he asks.

"Do you still love me? All you do is race, game, hang with the drivers, eat, sleep and complain." I say with a cold heart and a feeling of complete and utter guilt as I say it.

"That's not true." He said.

"Lando, I cook for you, I clean for you, I kill bugs for you because you are too scared to. You wouldn't be able to live on your own." I say.

"Y/N this isn't working out". he said.

"I knew it. It's okay. I understand. I'll leave you be. I'll make it so it was like we never dated. And you never introduced me to the press, so you will not have to deal with the rumors and whatnot." I say.

My heart is broken, but I knew I had it coming.

"Y/N, no." He said. "Its not like that."

"Oh, really. Then what is it like?" I ask, half angry

"Y/N, you need to understand something. I didn't say this isn't working out because I dont like you. I said it because I see what's going on." He said.

I am really confused.

"Y/N, you're amazing. I can see it. All your friends can see it. All the drivers can see it. Everyone can see it; everyone but you." He said.

Okay, but what does that have to do with anything? I think to myself

"Y/N, you're amazing, but you don't see it. You grew up never feeling like you were enough. You always have been and always will be, but you just can't see it. You have always wanted to be better than you are. And this has given you a very self-judgmental mentality." He continued.

He's not wrong.
He actually makes a really good point.

"And Y/N, because you don't ever thing you are sufficiant, which you are much more than, you are constantly doubting that I love you. But I do." he said.

Tears form in my eyes.

"Y/N, I said this isn't working out because it isn't. Not because I don't love you or you don't love me, but because you don't love yourself." He said

Why is he so right?

"Y/N, I can't do this to you. It isn't fair. I cant have you dating me while you don't think you're good enough. You are so much more than enough, and I love you. But you dont love yourself. And that is a problem." He said. "Y/N, I don't want to do this but I have to. I can't have you love me before you love yourself. I want to take a break, so you can learn this. Y/N, you are accomodating, darling, frisky, innocent, nap-loving, pretty, understandable, victorious, wholesome person I have ever met. But you don't see that." He said.

That is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me.

"I want to take a break and be friends. Just until you sort things out and learn to love yourself the way I love you. Then, I promise, if you still love me, I will take you back with open arms and love you eternally. Okay?" he said and kissed my forehead.

"Do I still get to come to your place and hang around, cook, clean and kill bugs for you?" I asked.

"You are always allowed to come kill bugs for me. But I dont want you to feel like I don't love you because I love you so sooo much. So the moment I see you love yourself, you will be my baby girl again. Until then, you will be like my sister and like my best friend." He said and kisses my forehead again.

I smile and nod.
We get up from the table and we hug.

I needed that hug.

"Okay Y/N. Come here." He said and pulled me in front of a mirror.

"What do you see." He asks.

"I see me?" I answer.

"Well I see two different versions of you. I see the sweet loving innocent one. The side most people love. But I also see a fierce side. I see pride. I see power! I see a bad-ass mother who don't take to crap off of ANYBODY!" He said quoting one of my favourite movies ever. Cool runnings. (here is the link to the clip https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7zFHkBQBg-4 )

"And that's the side I love." He said.

Ok here's the video