Saving Her Lost Soul

Chapter 5

I've been for a run today after classes. I showered and now I'm stood in my room in my underwear looking for my black dress. I rummage through my draws but I come up empty. Hell, Jesse never gave it back. I walk down the hall in my underwear getting some looks as I pass people. It's 7 pm so the party has already started. Some random whistles are aimed at me. I walk into Jesse's room without knocking and I see him on top of blonde which I can't make out who. "The hell, Blake. . ." he says.
"I need my dress. You can keep the panties and my bra, I just want the dress." I ignore him as he gets up off the bed with only his boxers on, I don't even look at the blonde. Girls do nothing for me so I don't want to see how under dressed she it. "Carry on, don't mind me." I say gesturing to the blonde.
"Babe, who is this?" Babe? Who the fuck calls each other babe? I rummage around on the floor looking for my clothes.
"Blake, can you get out?" I start going through his draws ignoring him. "It's fine baby, just hang on." Blah, I'm going to be sick as I gag at them. "Blake, christ hang on." I find condoms, and a vibrator I laugh and hold it up to him.
"Lol, this could be interesting." Not that I want to use it, that's just grim, he could have used it on any fucker. Jesse's eyes go wide and snatches it from me and lobs it in the draw before he slams it shut. He walks to his bedside table and pulls out my dress but stuffs my bra and panties back in the draw before the blonde notices. Hmm, that looks a bit sentimental being in his beside drawer. He steps towards me and passes it to me. I wink at him and kiss him on his cheek and he goes red.
"What the hell!" the girl screams. I laugh and I leave the room.
"Walk of shame?" Flynn remarks as I walk towards my bedroom.
"No actually. Just needed to get my clothes from the other night. I walked in on him with a blonde."
"Where's your underwear then, I know full well you had nothing under that shirt the other day."
"I let him keep it as a memento. Seeing as I had to go rummaging for my dress."
"A memento? Does he like you or something?"
"I dunno, don't care. I'm over that one, calling his blonde baby? Like Blah, if he called me that I would have punched him in the face." I open my door and go to shut it but as per usual Flynn comes in too. I lock the door and I go to slide the dress over my head. Fricking stupid zip, I should have just worn another dress. Flynn's finger tips touch my bare back near the zip and I gasp.
Why the fuck does he burn me all the time? His fingers skim my back as he slides the zip up. As soon as he's finished I move away from him creating distance between us. I grab my knee high boots and slide them up my legs. "Wouldn't you want Jesse Lomax as your boyfriend?" he mocks me.
"I don't date," I snap. He rolls his eyes at me, that's my trick.
"Do you do anything?"
"Course, I'll do most things. I'm quite adventurous I'll have you know. Guys would kill to have someone as fun as me around."
"But just as friends right?"
"No, I don't have friends."
"Christ, Riley. What am I then?"
"You're my brother's best friend. Nothing more, nothing less." He slams his palm against the wall. I don't even flinch, that type of thing would have me quivering like a leaf before.
"Why won't you let me in, Riley?"
"I don't let anyone in. I've been hurt before, never again. I can't trust anyone."
"Why can't you trust me? I haven't given you a reason not to trust me."
"I've been ruined, Flynn. I'm broken, go find some other girl who you actually have a chance with. I can't give you anything." He sighs and walks towards me. I back up against the wall trapped against his body and the wall.
"I don't want another girl. Tell me our kiss meant nothing to you. I've never felt anything like this before."
"It meant nothing to me," I lie. I need him away, far away. I hate him so close. I take a deep breath breathing him in. Filling my lungs full of fresh pure air.
"You're lying Riley."
"I don't feel, Flynn. I drink until I'm numb. I have no friends, I'm alone in this shitty life. Lying to me to get what you want won't work on me. You could have any fucking naive girl you want. You like the idea of a challenge--" he cuts me off with claiming my lips with his.
I try to push against his chest but he doesn't stop. "Feel my lips Riley," his tongue slides across my lips leaving a minty taste to them. He places his hands on my neck, "Feel my hands against your delicious skin." The burn on my throat is overwhelming. I shut my eyes as he drops to his knees. He pushes my dress up around my hips, he places one hand on the back of my thigh and the other grazes over my panties.
"I thought you don't feel Riley?" he growls. "I can feel the wetness through your panties." I gasp and he pushes my panties to the side and slides his fingers inside me. I grip his hair to keep me steady. Fuck, what is going on? His finger rubs against the walls inside me and a treacherous moan escapes my lips and my head falls back. "You smell so fucking good, Riley. I've never smelt anything so sweet."
I open my eyes and look down at him as his eyes look up at me with lust and it pushes me further into this foreign feeling of pleasure. His lips part and he pants heavily through his lips. The sound of his laboured breathing makes me wetter between my legs. His hand disappears from my leg and he grabs my ankle and forces my legs to spread wider.
His fingers continue to swirl and pump pushing me higher as his free hand pushes my panties to the side and his hot burning tongue swipes over my clit and I call out. Fuck, I grip his hair tighter and throw my head back. My whole body is burning, my heart is beating so fast. It's pumping hot blood through my veins across my body.
My legs tighten I'm scared about what this means, where my body is going. "Come for me, Riley. Only for me," he mumbles taking a breath before returning his tongue to my clit. Holy christ, I call out as my whole body burns and the feeling of ecstacy overwhelms me and my vision blurs.
My pussy pulsing and clenching around his fingers as he slows the rhythm. My whole body relaxes as I lose all sensation. I'm lost in this world, in his world and it's the sanest I've felt in ages. I've never felt anything like this before it's complete bliss, I'm in heaven not hell right now. When my senses return I'm lying on my back on the bed with Flynn's hand is on my stomach looking at me on his side. He's perched on his elbow burning me with those black eyes.
"You're so beautiful when you orgasm. Do you know that?" I'm still not able to use my words yet. I'm still in a daze.
"Hmmm," I half smile and he grins at me.
"I'm going to have to do that again to calm you like this. To see you so chilled is--" I turn on my side to look at him and he moves his hand to my hip. "How do you feel?"
"Calm, how did you even do that?"
"Do what?" His right hand reaches up and moves the hair from my face.
"Make me climax, do you have a special trick or something?"
"Wait. . ." he sits up and I strangely miss his touch. "Have you never had an orgasm before?" I get up off the bed.
"I told you, nobody can!" I snap. He leans on the headboard and pats the bed next to him.
"Please, sit down." I roll my eyes and sit cross legged facing him. "I'm just surprised that's all. I just thought it was to do with your boundaries again. I'm the only one that has given you an orgasm?"
I roll my eyes and nod and he looks shocked but very pleased with himself. He grabs my wrist and pulls me onto his lap so I'm sat astride him with my legs either side of him. He smooths my hair out of my hair with his hands I lean into his burning hands. "I want you Riley, not just as a friend. How can you not see that? Your body wants me too."
I snap out of his spell and climb off his lap. "I can't give you anything Flynn, why can't so see that!" I yell, "This is who I am now. I was fucking stupid to let you do that to me." I point to the wall where he made me come. "I don't date, I don't have friends, I can't let anyone in. I can't trust anyone. This won't happen again! Please, leave me alone." I push my dress further down and I grab my bag and pull out my wine bottle and leave my room with a slam of the door.
I scream in the hallway, I don't care that I'm getting dirty looks. I twist the cap of the bottle and take a huge mouthful, downing as much as I can. Fucking Flynn Archer, he's fucking toying with me. I storm downstairs and scan the room. I need to forget the way he made me feel. "Riley!" Tyler calls and I walk towards him. "What has you so pissed off?"
"If your friend so much as looks at me again I'm going to fucking kill myself." I shout and his mouth falls open. I bring the bottle to my lips again and chug the wine.
"Where is he? I'll talk to him."
"Yeah because your talking to him really works. Last time I saw him he was in my room."
"Fuck sake," he growls and walks towards the stairs. I need to get fucking plastered, I scan the room for Tristan. I find his man bun and walk towards him. I jump on his back and I cling to his neck.
"You want your rematch now pretty boy?" I feel his muscles underneath my body. He's not as ripped as Nathan but still, he's close. His hands grip my thighs and he moves his head to the side to look at me.
"You're going down Blake." I laugh at his confidence in winning this time. I take another swig of my drink, nearly 3/4 gone already. Daniel needs to hurry up with my Tequila. Tristan walks towards the crowd of people and I see Tyler and Flynn coming downstairs and I see them both glaring at me.
"Blake is challenging me guys. Set it up, same as last time." I finish the bottle of wine and let it drop to the floor whilst I cling to Tristan's neck. "If I win, you stay in my bed tonight."
"It won't happen," I say. One because I'll win and two because I don't sleep with anyone.
"You're that sure? Okay, what do you want if you win?"
"When I win, I want a Vodka bottle every night for a week."
"Can I sweeten the deal with sex? Because that way I win either way."
"Whatever you want, I don't want you to be a sore loser." I say and kiss his cheek. I jump off him and look at him.
"Ready?" I nod at him. "Matty, Jimbo assist?" Matty grins at me and steps towards me. I throw my hands in the air and handstand and Matty grabs my ankles. I feel my dress slowly slipping down my legs. I look at Tristan who's next to me handstanding. "Ready?" I nod, "I'll see you in my bed tonight."
"You wish," I say when the tube is placed in my mouth. I start gulping the beer sucking it to get it to come out quicker. My dress slips and drops to my armpits. Oh hell, that makes it harder to suck the fucking beer out. Matty distracts me sliding his hand futher down my leg.
I catch Flynn storming out the room with Tyler close on his tail. The tube runs dry and I spit the tube out and Matty lets my legs go. I stand upright and see Tristan still chugging. I laugh my victory as he finishes and spits the tube out. He gets to his feet and he frowns. "Sore loser?"
He bends down and clasps my thighs and wraps my knees around his shoulder. I hold his head facing him as he looks up at me. "I win either way pretty girl." I throw my head back and laugh. "How are you so good at that? I feel fucking pissed." I continue to laugh as he begins to sway. He loses his balance and falls forward. I take the blow as we land as he falls on me.
"Lee you okay?" Tyler says as he pushes Tristan off me. I nod as I stand up on my own and wipe myself down.
A burning hand wraps around my arm, "No you're not, look you're bleeding." Flynn growls. I push his hand off me.
"Let me bleed." I snap.
"Sis, don't. I'll clean it up. Flynn, give her some space."
"I'm not even doing anything wrong?" he snaps.
"You don't know her like I do. She's not as stable as you think."
"Fuck you!" I snap and leave them to argue. Not stable? Please. . . I look at the door and Daniel has just arrived with a Tequila bottle in tow. I skip towards him and grab his hand and lead him to the sofa. I sit on his lap and he passes me the bottle.
I open it and neck it down. I cringe at the taste after the wine and the beer. "Let's play Never have I ever," Lucy says. I roll my eyes at her. Bloody full tits, blonde hair, green eyes.
Lots of people gather round. Lucy gets up and grabs a bottle and some cups. She passes them around so everyone has a cup of something. She holds a cup to me, "I don't need one." I hold the bottle up, "This is my weapon of choice," she grins and carries on the circle.
"Okay, I'll start. Never have I ever had a threesome." I roll my eyes and take swig of my drink. If these innocent girls keep saying stupid shit then I'll be drinking the whole damn bottle.
"Never have I ever had sex with a stranger," Matty says. I take another swig from the bottle. Fuck my life.
"Never have I ever been caught at it by my parents," Tyler says and he looks at me. I sigh and take a swig fucking wanker.
"Never have I ever pushed the people I care about away," Flynn says glaring at me. I think about not drinking but I've pushed my family away so I take a swig. Why is he pissed at me? He's the one toying with me.
"Never have I ever been with an older person more than 10 years older than me," the girl says giggling. Fucking squealy bitch I swig my drink and Tyler's eyes pop out his head.
"Never have I ever kissed the same sex as me," another girl says. Hell, I'm going to be drinking all night. I drink again and I look around the room and I'm one of very few who drinks.
"Never have I ever been cheated on," another girl says. I look at Flynn as his eyes burn me again this is all too personal. I take a swig and his mouth drops open. I take another glug just to try settle the pain of the hole in my chest.
My turn fuck my life, what haven't I done? "Never have I ever faked an orgasm." I look around the room and I'm surprised at the amount of people that have. Including Tyler and Flynn.
"Never have I ever been pregnant." Christ if these get anymore personal I'm going to blow my brains out. I take a swig and I feel burning eyes on me again.
"Never have I ever been forced into sex," Nathan says. I look at Tyler and he frowns. He doesn't know, shall I lie? I take swig and jump to my feet. I feel eyes on my me and I run up the stairs two by two. I lock the door behind me. I hear thumping on the door. Fuck, I drank too much and I revealed too much.
I'm so glad these door are so heavy that you can't easily kick them in. My phone vibrates but I turn it off without looking who it is. I drink and drink until I feel nothing. I hate that people know, why the hell did I tell them? I'm so fucking stupid. I lay on bed staring at the ceiling. My head spins and I'm glad, no painful memories. No voices in my head.
I think of Flynn's fingers inside me the feeling of my climax. That was the calmest, the most raw I've ever been. I let him in and that was idiotic. How am I supposed to keep him out now when he's already gotten closer than anyone else. I'm so glad I didn't see their faces when I took a drink after that question. I'm numb and so fucking smashed that nothing makes sense. Flynn's black eyes spin around and around my head until I pass out.