Saving Her Lost Soul

Chapter 6

When I wake I look around for my phone. I try to turn it on but the battery must be dead. I plug my iPhone in and wait whilst it charges enough to turn on. I flop back on the bed, I fucking hate it here. The memories of the 'Never have I ever' game reappear in my head and I groan. Moments later my phone vibrates indicating it's back on. I unlock it and look at the time, Sunday? I slept for two days? The party was friday. It's six pm. Christ sake.
I get up and leave my phone on charge and head for a shower. When I get there it's locked fucking inconsiderate bastards. I bang on the door to tell them to hurry the heck up. I lean against the wall and wait. "Hurry up, I'm losing the will to live!" I yell.
"Blake, calm down," I hear Nathan call from the bathroom. I roll my eyes at him. Moments later he comes out with a towel wrapped around his waist and water dripping off his chest. "All yours Blake," he says motioning to the door. I poke my tongue out and enter the bathroom. I go to the loo and climb into the shower. I repeat my same routine of washing my body.
I don't linger more than necessary before getting out the shower. I walk out of the bathroom and head for my room. I ignore my ringing phone as I change into a long sleeve black lace dress. I put on some shoes and apply my make up. I push my hair into a high pony tail and I grab my phone as I leave and lock my door.
I walk down the stairs and I ignore my name being called. I don't register who it is, I just walk faster out of the frat house. I feel like I can't fucking breathe today. I walk across the lawn and I feel a burning hand on my arm. "Riley!"
"Don't touch me!" I snap and pull my arm out of his hold.
"I've been worried about you." I keep walking but I know he's walking after me.
"Don't be. No one would even fucking miss me if I was gone! So don't act like you care. It's too early to be fighting with you!"
He grabs my arm again and pulls me to his body again, "You think no one would miss you if you died or some shit? What is going on in your head? It's the evening Riley? How is it early, look around you it's dark out." I knew it was dark, I'm not blind.
"Stop it, Flynn. I hate it when you touch me," he drops his arms so they aren't touching me like I've stabbed him.
"You hate it? Or you hate how it makes you feel?"
"I'm not doing this with you. I need a drink." I walk away again aiming for the nearest pub. I know he's still with me following behind me.
"I don't like how you drink so much, Riley. You're going to kill yourself with all this drinking." I keep walking not replying to him. His hand grabs mine and I want to pull away but I don't. I let him hold my hand whilst I walk to Pop's. When we arrive he doesn't let go of my hand.
"Vodka on the rocks." I demand when I get to the bar.
"Have you eaten today? I'm not a fan of you puking around me."
"I haven't eaten since. . . I don't know. . . the boost bar."
"Fuck sake Riley." I grab my drink. The cool glass helps my sweaty palms. "Can we have some menu's?" he says to the barman. He hands Flynn some menu's and Flynn pushes me to an empty table.
"I don't eat with guys, Flynn." I'm fed up of telling my boundaries for him to just ignore. I don't want to give him any false hope of more.
"Humour me," he pushes the menu to me as I sit down. I sip my cool drink and sigh. I scan the menu and choose the burger. It's what I normally choose anyway wherever I go. I try push Flynn away but he never fucking listens. "What you having?"
"Burger, I guess," he nods and gets up to order at the bar. I pull my knees to my chest, he makes me feel so vulnerable. I watch him as he leans against the bar. His ass is fucking sexy. I cough to make my thoughts disappear. I down the rest of my drink.
Moments later he joins me at my table again. "Let's play a game." I roll my eyes. "Twenty questions?" I shake my head. "I promise no intrusive questions. But you have to answer honestly."
"Fine."
"Favourite colour?"
"Black," he rolls his eyes. "Siblings?"
"Nope." No sibling? "What was your favourite colour before?" I clench my fists on the table. "Come on it's not that intrusive."
"Pink. How many girlfriends have you had?"
"One long term, the other couple of weeks. The rest were no strings attached. Same question."
"I haven't had any girlfriends," he rolls his eyes.
"You knew what I meant. Boyfriends."
"One," I say honestly. The barman brings two drinks over. I take a sip of the pepsi and I cringe as I realise there is no alcohol in it. He leaves us to it, "Favourite movie."
"Fast and Furious. Yours."
"Don't have one."
"You have to have one."
"Nope."
"Okay, favourite hobby."
"Running. Gym, anything. You?"
"I like to fix cars." I nod not expecting him to say that. "When's your birthday?"
"October 25th."
"Next week?" I nod.
"Favourite book?" he asks. We aren't really taking it in turns but I don't really care.
"I don't read anymore."
"Why?"
"I used to read them to escape my life. I loved to fall in love with the characters living in their world but after I can't bring myself to do it. I'm not capable of love so what's the point?"
"Not capable of love? Don't you love your brother, your parents?"
"No. I used to, for sure. Now, I don't feel like his sister or their daughter." He puts his hand over mine and I don't stop him. "How long were you with your long term girlfriend, when was it?"
"Last year, about six months give or take."
"Why did it end?"
"I got bored of her. She was too clingy. There was nothing there, she was just too boring. Besides her wild party side her personality was non-existent."
He sips on his pepsi and I can't help but watch his lips wrapping around his straw. Those lips that sent me into my first orgasm. "What is your favourite thing?" he asks.
"Don't really have a favourite thing."
"Okay, before. . . "
"Urm, my teddy bear Rosie that Tyler got for me."
"It's not your favourite thing anymore?"
"Nope, burnt it. After . . ."
"Why?"
"I cut all ties with before. She was a stupid sentimental bitch. Every personal object burnt or thrown away," he squeezes my hand. Our food arrives and he lets go of my hand. I pick up my burger and shove it in my mouth and he laughs.
"I've always loved the way you eat burgers." I wipe my mouth and chew. I sip my drink to wash it down. Flynn takes a mouthful of his drink and I take another huge bite and he starts choking with laughter and I start laughing too as Pepsi drips out his nose.
I throw my head back and really laugh. I haven't laughed like this in a long time. His laugh is infectious. Someone hushes us from the table and that only makes us laugh more. "I love your laugh, it's so beautiful." I stop laughing but I smile instead. We finish our food whilst we talk about random shit.
He stands up and holds his hand to me, I grab it and he leads me outside. "I've enjoyed your company tonight." I smile up at him, me too. I turn to face him and he wraps his arms around me. I look up into his black eyes and I bite my lip.
His right hand reaches up to my face and I lean into his burning hand. His lips claim mine and I don't have an ounce of strength in me to push him away. His piercing toys with my tongue and it's such a turn on. I haven't been with a guy with a tongue piercing before.
Flynn pulls away from me and he grabs my hand again and we walk down the road. It feels odd to casually walk hand in hand with someone. He turns left instead of right at the junction and I wonder where he's taking me. I thought we were going back to the Frat house.
We walk in silence as his warm hand burns mine. When we are together I feel like everything will be okay for once in my life. When I'm with him I don't feel so cold, the closer we are for the longest time I feel hot. My heart beats faster when I'm with him, it feels dormant when I'm alone.
The streetlights start to disappear as he leads us into darkness. "Your brother said you used to be scared of the dark, are you scared now?"
"What else has he said about me? No, I don't get scared of anything anymore." He stops us at a cliff side looking out onto the town. It's dark here but the lights are very bright from up here. Flynn pulls me down on the floor in front of him.
I lean my back against his front and he wraps his arms around me and he holds my hands. "Not much, he doesn't give much away. Why does nothing scare you anymore?"
"Because I block out all my feelings. I'm a walking zombie with no feeling. I'm dead to the world."
"Why do you live like that?"
"Because the pain is too much," I confess. Having Flynn hold me like this makes me feel loved for the first time in too long. I know it's not going to last long but I'm going to enjoy the right here and right now.
We talk for hours letting time pass. He said he's never taken anyone there before in his favourite spot and I was kinda happy to share it with him. We walked back to the house hand in hand until we stop outside my door. "Thanks," I say.
"You're welcome. Sleep well," I shrug. I unlock my door and he pulls me in for another kiss. My lips burn again. I pull away and shut the door behind me. I strip and get into my PJ's. I climb into bed and look at my phone. 1 am, I'm not sleepy at all. Fuck my life, my nightmares are going to be hell tonight with no alcohol. I only had one drink and that didn't touch the sides. I pull the covers over me as my warm body starts to cool down.
It's been warm for hours and now it's icing up again. Fucking Flynn Archer for toying with me again. I stare at the ceiling for hours until I fall asleep.
The pain, the physical pain and the mental pain seers through me. "Riley!" Mother screams at me. The pain of the windshield shattering and the glass slicing through my stomach. The sound echoing in my head. The screeching of tyres. I scream at the pain.
"Riley!" The burning hands grab my face and I sit up in bed. My body is shaking and my body is drenched in sweat. "Riley, you okay?" I look into his black eyes and I shake my head.
"I should have downed my tequila. Last time I stay sober again before going to bed." I look at the bottle and I reach for it but Flynn pulls me back.
"You don't need it."
"I do, okay? You fucking made me stay fucking sober. I hate it! The nightmares Flynn, you don't understand."
"Just let it out Riley, scream at me, cry whatever but please. Don't drown yourself in tequila."
"I don't cry, Flynn. I haven't since before," he lays down and pulls me to his chest. He's only in his boxers. I put my head on his chest and touch his abs. I try match my breathing with his.
"My beautiful lost soul." I close my eyes and let him comfort me. He warms me up again. Burning me once more. I'm a better person around him, I willingly let him in when he's with me. It's only when we are apart I push him away. Once my body relaxes my eyes begin to droop. I move my head to the crook of his neck and smell his musky scent and I nuzzle my nose into him. I fall asleep in his arms.
When I wake I'm cold as ice. I look around me and Flynn isn't here. Fucking bastard playing with me again. I get dressed in jeans and top again. I grab my phone and back as I leave the room. I check the time and it's 7.45 am. Fuck, that's early for me. It's the fricking lack of alcohol. I run downstairs and I leave the house.
I walk to the corner shop and make my usual snatch a grab and order my usual vodka and coffee. They're the only place for miles that sell alcohol this early in the morning. I take a fag out and light up once I'm outside. I walk to the campus and I sit in my usual place and add in the vodka. I add in a bit extra as it's all out my system. I sip on the hot coffee and feel relief.
I put the fag in my mouth and I see Tyler walking across the courtyard. Closely behind him is Flynn fucking Archer with his arm around a redhead's shoulder. I roll my eyes, last time I let him close. I bring the fag to my lips and take a drag. I feel his eyes burning me but I ignore him taking another drag of coffee.
I walk to my first class and I sit outside and rest my head on the wall. I finish my fag and put it out on the floor. I roll my eyes when I see Flynn standing in front of me. "You coming?" I roll my eyes and stand up ignoring his offered hand.
I pick up my bag and hear the glass bottles clinking. I sip my coffee and I walk into the class. I sit in the chair and place my coffee on the desk. Of course, Flynn slides in next to me. Class has already started and I cross my legs. He picks up my coffee and takes a mouthful, he literally gags on it and glares at me. Fucking drinking my coffee again. "I thought you weren't going to drink anymore? There's more vodka in there than coffee."
"I never said that," I snap.
"What's wrong? Why are you shutting me out again?"
"Leave me alone, Flynn." I glug my coffee fucking minty again. Ruins it god damn it. He places his hand on my thigh burning me. I slap his hand away and he growls at me.
"I thought we had a nice time last night?"
"Yeah you had a nice time playing me."
"Playing you? What?" I lift my bag off the floor and dig around for my vodka. I unscrew the cap and bring it to my lips and he grabs the bottle. "Stop drinking Riley."
I snatch the bottle and drink some more before capping it and putting it in my bag. "You aren't shit to me to tell me what to do." I stand up and push passed him leaving my shitty minty coffee on my desk. He calls after me but I ignore him.
I reach the courtyard and I feel hot and clammy. I stop walking and process what this is. Fucking stupid body. My vision blacks out and I lose all senses as I hear my name being called.
My burning body is being shaken as my eyes reopen. "Riley?" Flynn looks down at me. He picks me up into his arms but I'm not processing anything. "Fuck, Riley answer me," he growls as he walks. The sky is blurring as he marches. "Riley?"
"Flynaaa," I slur. What the fucking hell is my speech doing? He places me in the front seat of a car and shuts the door. He runs around to the drivers side and buckles me in. I try push him off me but my limbs don't move the way I want them to. "Flynna scare." I don't know what this means.
He starts the car a pulls away. I try focus on his handsome face and he holds my hand, "I know baby. I know." Don't call me that. When I regain fucking speech I'm going to kill him for that. His permanent frown line seems to be deeper today. I shut my eyes trying to get my limbs to work and my speech to work.
Flynn pulls up and cuts the engine as he runs around to myside of the car. I push his hands away as he unbuckles my belt. He lifts me out of the car and starts walking. "Stop touching me." I groan. He doesn't even look down at me. Did I even say it?
He enters a building and he starts speaking some random shit to someone. I don't even listen. He takes me further into the building. I smell horrible bleach and bury my head into his neck and try block the smell out replacing it with his scent. He lowers me onto a bed and holds my hand. "Riley Blake?" A lady says. I try to follow the voice and she's a nurse. Brown hair tidied neatly behind her head.
"What am I doing here?" I sit up and try get out of bed but Flynn holds me down. "Get off me Flynn."
"Miss calm down, I'm going to take some test apparently you had a seizure. Do you remember?" I look at Flynn and he is looking at me with sad eyes like I may disappear. "Is there anything that would cause your seizure? Have you got any medical issues I need to worry about?"
"No."
"She's a heavy drinker. She hasn't drunk in a couple of days but started again this morning." Fucking bastard.
"Do you drink excessively? Everyday?" I roll my eyes.
"Yes, she does."
"And you haven't drunk in a few days? Is that normal for you?" I shake my head, "I need to take some tests but drinking excessively and then stopping can be really dangerous. Has anyone spoken to you about alcohol abuse?"
"Fuck you." I mutter, "Who cares?"
"Riley, shut up a minute. Let her do the tests for god sake." I roll my eyes and I let her poke and prod me for fucking hours. Doing one test after the other, I am literally ready to kill someone as I've sobered up yet again.
The nurse reenters and I frown, "The doctor will be in shortly to discuss the results with you." I cross my arms. If bloody Flynn wasn't with me I'd have left by now. I stare at the white walls and breathe in the sterile fucking smell that's making my throat burn.