To the nights we spent

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It's 5 am in the morning and i have classes. Wala akong masyadong tulog dahil sa mga sinabi niya kahapon, it doesn't felt so real. He just confessed that he loves me! What should i react with that?

I recalled what happened that night.

"I like you, Yhiene Qezia Mendez, I like you very much, i'm happy that the universe let us met, i'm happy that i know you." he said, i looked away from him. I was shooked. I was surprised that he confessed, i was surprised that he liked me.

"W-Walter...you don't know what your saying. Please don't pull some weird tricks on me, hindi nakakatuwa." Sabi ko at pilit na tumawa, tumingin naman agad siya sakin at sumeryoso.

If this is a prank, i would be mad. Imagine getting played? That would be hurt so much. I didn't want to experience that kind of pain. Hindi mo sisihin ang partner mo, kundi ang sarili mo, like what did i do to get played with? what did i do to just treat me like a toy?

Maybe i'm not worth it enough.

Maybe i'm not beautiful.

Maybe he doesn't need me anymore...

He cupped my face, he stared at me intently. Iniwas ko ang mukha ko sakanya, pero nanatili pa rin ang kanyang mga kamay dun. "I'm not playing with you..please. Don't treat me like this, your treating me like a trash that you dumped."

"I didn't do that, at hindi ka basura. Alam mo yan." I shifted on my seat uncomfortably. "I'm gonna throw that commitment issues, i'm gonna throw that trust issues, i will treasure you..i will give you assurance..just don't treat me like this. Paniwalaan mo naman ako oh?" He pleaded.

Tinaas ko ang parehas kong kamay na umaaktong susuko, when he saw it, he smiled. He pinched my cheeks, pinalo ko agad yun at tinarayan siya dahil nasaktan niya ako. Why did he know about my problems? My commitment issues? My trust issues? I opened up about the family issues, but not this two.

"How did you know that i got a problem with myself? I can't commit with people, i can't trust people easily. I don't wanna get fooled again, i don't wanna commit to the person who just wants to accompany them, not love me." I said.

"I understand you Qezia, I understand. Just please trust me this one okay? I won't do it again, I won't sacrifice your trust." He noticed my tears he wiped it using his thumb. He gave me a handkerchief. Inayos ko ang sarili ko, then i smiled at myself. I did a great job today.

He held both of my hands, he looked at me intently. He smiled to me again, like that smile's gonna wiped away the pain, the sadness. He understand what i felt, and i encouraged myself that it's fine. He got my back, he will stay by my side.

My mind came back to the present when my phone vibrated, it's from our group chat.

"ha-na-may-dog"

I've been broke so many times:
Oy mga hatdog nagseen na si Yhi!!!!

Qeqe :
Bakit anong chika cyst?

Laging nasa langit:
Ikaw bitchesa ka! Anyare kagabi?

In the barbie world:
Nanalo raw kayo ah!
aral kana ha! :) ily

Qeqe:
Yes bb, eto na nga ang chika of the day!

Serena:
Bakit di ako tinanong niyo?
forgot niyo na ako mga cyst :(