To the nights we spent

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It would not hurt if i can see him in some place right? It's time to clarify things, hindi tamang iniiwasan ko lahat palagi.

I just wore a simple blouse and a short, we decided to meet in Starbucks. I chose not to wear the 'necklace' he gave me, i don't want to get him some high hopes, mas madali lang lutasan kung ganoon....kung sakali.

Nung pumasok ako sa Starbucks, maraming tao. Kaya medyo nahirapan akong hanapin siya, kaya luminga linga pa ako sa paligid. He's sitting on the edge! Parang ayaw niyang mayroon makakita saamin!

He's wearing a simple white shirt, and a pants. He's wearing a gold chain necklace, he also brushed up his hair, he looks like a bad boy! Kung hindi ko lang nagustuhan si Walter, baka magustuhan ko siya.

Pero baka ganoon rin ang gawin niya sakin, kaya hindi ko rin alam. If i knew this would all happen, i would take away my sweet words to Walter, and just let me be single.

I laughed at that, that's why i smiled while sitting in front of Zyren. He looks serious and intently staring at me, i felt the awkwardness so i looked away immedietly.

"So....how was the trip?" He started the conversation, i'm not really in the mood to make this conversation long, i don't want to experience the shortcuts, ayoko nang patagalin 'to. Gusto ko rin naman malaman, at may karapatan rin naman ako diba?

"I don't have much time, so get straight to the point, please." I tucked my baby hair's into my ears, which made him looked at me, intently....again.

I think he wants me, siguro gusto niya pa ako? But for the sake of his friend, ipapaupabaya niya. I don't want to start assume things, or trying to make a guess. As much as possible, i want myself to go to the flow.....always.

"Kami yung may pakana ng lahat, Walter's not with it...ayaw niya." Straight forward na sabi niya, i gave him a confuse look. "We blackmailed him.....no....no not we, just me."

He really looks guilty, the fear on his eyes looks vivid. The 'bad boy' vibe i just saw, vanished. Nawala lahat nung nakita ko ang takot sa mga mata niya....is he really saying the truth?

"Why did you blackmailed him? Do you know that's a crime? Kung gusto niya, or ako? Pwede kita isumbong." I said, grinning.

"No.....he knows it okay? Please, wag na natin 'tong palakihin." Huminga siya ng malalim, "I-i really liked y-you back then."

Now, i'm the one who's shocked. I flinched on that, so totoo nga? Totoo lahat ng hula ko? Walter's not making an excuse, because it's really true.

That's when the guilt affected me.....sana nakinig pa ako sakanya.....sana mas naniwala pa ako sakanya. So i won't suffer a month! Sobrang mas napadali sana kung mas pinalawak ko ang isip ko diba? Tama nga siya.

"Kung gusto ko ako, bakit hindi ikaw ang lumapit sakin? Care to explain?" I said, still shocked. "I-i really don't have the balls to talk to you.....sakto pa? masyadong mabait yun....inaabuso namin....naabuso namin."

"Kaya lang one time, napagod siya. Sinabi saamin na gusto ka rin pala....we have a huge fight, pinipigilan ko siyang sabihin lahat sayo....yun yung nagdecide siya na ligawan ka niya....siya na lahat yun, nagpaubaya na rin ako eh....una pa lang talo na ako."

He smirked, i shifted uncomfortably in my seat. Hindi ako komportable na pinaguusapan yung 'gusto' niya ako....i never really imagine that....never.

"If i were him, i'll give you everything, i'll give you all the love you deserved. But ever since, sa una pa lang....i fucked up." He looked up, trying to hold his tears.