The Girl Who Had Only One Dress. (herophine)

35. "I should have chosen Bella over you"

THIS CHAPTER IS UNEDITED

Hero

Jo pushed my wheelchair inside of the house as we all finally got in. It flet so weird being in a wheelchair all the time. I felt so helpless. 

"I'll tell Andre to make you a soup" my mom said and then left the room with her head down so we couldn't see her tears. I knew she was crying nonstop for my situation. I wanted to cry too but I was too numb to even realize what was happening. My life was ruined.

"I'll help you get to your room" Theo told me and I nodded. Mercy gave me a sad smile and a kiss on the cheek before going to her room as well. I knew it was hard for her too.

Jo stayed by my side, like always. 

I loved her more than anything and I just couldn't help but be greatful.

"Maybe it's better if Hero starts sleeping down here, so he doesn't have to go up the stairs all the time"

But sometimes she was just soooo annoying.

I rolled my eyes.

"I don't need any help. I can go up the stairs just fine. I can't move one leg, but I have another leg remember?"

"But-"

"Just shut up already!" I snapped at her.

She took a deep breath and then did a step back like my words had impact on her. I could realize that I kept hurting her a lot lately, unintetionally and intentionally. After the accident I just wanted to be alone but Jo was always by my side. 

There were so many things going on in my head. The fact that I lost my chance on the music school made me angry. Jo just tried to make me feel like everything was okay.

But I knew nothing was okay. So, sometimes I was letting my anger out on her to just make her feel how I was feeling.

I was helpless and nobody deserved to be that happy.

Selfish, right?

But sometimes my mouth worked before my brain. I couldn't filter it and I definitely couldn't say sorry.

I was guilty. But I was also in a wheelchair. I didn't need to say sorry.

"I'll go see how the soup is going" Jo said with her head down and then left me alone.

That's what I wanted right?

But when I saw her walking away from me all sad because of my words I just felt empty.

"You really are an asshole, aren't you?" Theo said besides me.

"I'm in a wheelchair"

"And she's wrecking herself trying to make you feel better every single second. Be a little thankful"

"I am. Now take me to my room!" I demanded slowly standing up from the wheelcair in one leg.

Theo helped up the stairs and onto my bed.

"Do you want me to read you a bedtime story?" He cooed sarcastically.

I threw a pillow at him and he dogded it laughing. Angrily I stared outside the window. I couldn't even laugh the past few days.

"Jo is wonderful" Theo suddenly said. "Don't let go of her, okay? You need her more than she needs you, believe me"

I scoffed and Theo gave me the middle finger before he left.

I don't even know how much time passed when I heard a knock on my door and Jo came quietly in holding a tray with my soup.

"Hey" she whispered.