𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 {𝐿.𝑆.}

︎ 𝟙𝟛 ~ 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦

I still can't believe I actually nearly kissed him. I feel so damn stupid. What the hell was I thinking. Of course he doesn't want me. He has a goddamn girlfriend for fucks sake.

I'm pretty sure he feels grossed out now. Why is everything always so complicated. This afternoon was just one big embarrassment. I wish I could just go back and not ruin it. Why did I even try? What would he be thinking of me?!

I dropped down on my bed and all I can really think right now is that he looked so damn gorgeous. And how cute he was while I was fixing his hair. And- just. Ughh. I'm way too deep down. How the fuck am I ever gonna get over him... I just wish I had never caught feelings in the first place.

Luckily it's weekend so I can avoid him for the next couple days. In hopes of him forgetting about it and me feeling more confident again. Because right now I'm an emotional wreck.

All I keep thinking about are those ocean eyes.

I grabbed my guitar and could see the stars in the night sky. Sitting in my window always had given me a feeling of freedom and relief.

I started slowly strumming. Ocean Eyes has never felt this close to me. I've been scared of falling in love ever since Chloe.

Now here I am. Falling for the guy in the closet. The one with a girlfriend and the best personality I could ever find. The sweetest heart with the toughest soul. My best friend. The one I can't have.
The one with the ocean eyes.

I've never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes...

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I guess I fell asleep on my couch last night because I woke from the sound of my phone. Louis was calling me.

"Hi?" I said with a sleepy voice

"Hey Hazz. Did you just wake up?!" He asked full of confusion.

"Yeah why? What's wrong?"

"Nothing it's just- It's past 3pm. I would've thought you'd be up by now. I'm sorry if I woke you up." He sounded like he felt bad but I didn't really care that much.

I looked at my clock to see it was indeed 3.28pm. How long did I sleep? And why hasn't my mum woken me yet?

"No it's okay. I should have to wake up at some point right? So why did you call?" I asked hoping he didn't want to hang out or something.

"Oh yeah. Uhm Liam invited us to come to his house tonight. Were gonna make a little campfire and just hangout a bit. Zayn, Niall and Will are coming too and they asked if I could ask you too." He was so enthusiastic about it. But I'm not in the mood. I don't think I'll be able to handle it.