𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 {𝐿.𝑆.}

𝟛𝟡 ~ 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴

Lou and I haven't really talked much after our moment underneath the tree. I guess we're okay. But we didn't really talk after that.

I tried a few times. But he's reacting quite coldly and only in short answers. So I decided to give him some more space.

I haven't heard from him since, that was until this morning when he texted me to stay away from El and him. To just let them be and ignore her. If needed even to ignore Lou himself. It kinda hurt, not gonna lie. It really does.

But I did as he said and ignored them both this morning. He was basically wrapped around her like hasn't been in months. He had his arm wrapped around her waist with her head leaning on his shoulder.

Yes. I'm hella jealous right now.
Yes. I want to rip his arm off of her because I should be the one he wraps his arms around.
Yes. I want to kill Eleanor for getting away with everything while I have to suffer from one mistake. I get it but it still feels unfair in a way.

The ignoring was hard but it went quite well until lunch break...

"I really don't know Loulou. I can't choose." Eleanor says giggly

"Just choose Ill pay." Lou says while showing her pictures of god knows what.

"You don't have to Lou..."

"But I want to. Your my girlfriend. I never give you stuff. You deserve something right?" He says kissing her cheek.

I stare at my hands, feeling discomfortable but it doesnt really help. I immediately notice the rings I got from Lou.

"You're so sweet! I don't deserve this." She exclaims kissing his cheek. Indeed. You dont.

"Don't say that." He says nuzzling his nose in her hair. "You do."

OH. OKAY.
She cheats god knows how many times.
Nothing happens. She still deserves shit apparently.
I make out with ONE GUY.
I get the silent treatment. He pushes in my face that he still has a girlfriend he can run to and is practically making MY heart break by now.

Good to know nothing about this is fair.

I make a deep irritated sigh and everybody looks at me. "What?" I ask.

"Nothing. You just seem a bit Uhm... Off." Willow says eyeing me.

"Yeah. I'm kinda going through a rough patch." I say a little loadly so Lou can definitely hear.

"What are we doing tonight guys?" Lou suddenly asks.

"I don't know... we could go bowling after all. Like we discussed." Zayn says. Discussed? Uhm WHAT?!

"Who's going?" I ask curiously. Trying not to sound as pissed as I actually am.

"We all were..." Niall says softly. "You didn't know?" He seems not to know that and I have a little feeling.

I look at Lou and he just shrugs. Great. He purposely left me out. Very mature Tomlinson.

"I'm gonna go for a smoke. Anyone coming with me?" Liam suddenly asks.

I immediately take my chance to get out of there as fast as possible. Before I start yelling at Lou for acting like a little child.

"I'll come." I stand up and take of the heart-shaped ring Lou got me. The one he meant for our love. I put it in my bag and give Lou a little glare.

He looks shocked and maybe hurt. But he was the one starting to play this dirty game hurting my feelings first. I know I messed up but this isn't all me anymore.