𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 {𝐿.𝑆.}

𝟚𝟚 ~ 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺

I can't believe its already Christmas Eve tonight. It feels like a week ago that I arrived here. But I couldn't be happier.

I'm just really glad that after all this shit I've had in the past. With the divorce and moving in with my dad... everything else that happened in Holmes Chapel. That I can finally say I'm happy.

Things are still difficult sometimes. But overall I have Louis and Willow. Not only them, if there is anything I know I can always go to Niall or Liam. We're not besties but we're really good friends.

Zayn seems a little pissed at me sometimes but I try to just ignore it. I'm not sure what's his problem but he doesn't seem to fond of me lately. I guess maybe I'll find out today.

It's Christmas Eve tonight. Also known as December 24. Also known as Louis' birthday. I'm actually really excited about it. Except for the fact that Eleanor is gonna be there too of course...

Louis asked Zayn to have the party at his house because his own would be a little complicated with his sisters and all.

That's when I realized. I don't know shit about his home situation. Like nothing. We've been dating for I don't even know how long (a couple months?) and I haven't even heard him once about his home situation. I guess its regular, that or he doesn't like to talk about it. Which I respect.

I don't even know where he lives. He never even mentioned his sisters before. I'll admit w getting curious. But to be honest I don't think I want to meet them. Or his parents...

I'm a scared chicken okay. I don't like meeting family. People have two reactions to me and that's either they like me. Or they hate me to the bone. There is no in between and over time I've noticed its more likely to be the latter.

I know I'll have to meet them at some point but unless Louis asks me to I don't need to.

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L: Hey Hazza. I know Eleanor is coming today and I just wanted to remind you I don't mean anything I tell her. Most of the time I'm just thinking about you♥️

He suddenly texts me while I'm getting ready. He thinks about me?

H: I know Boo💕
Happy Birthday😘

I used to hate emojis but ever since I got with Louis I got addicted to them. They add a little colour to the screen.

I finished getting ready and grabbed the presents I bought for him. I am officially broke now. But it's gonna be all worth it. I just really hope Louis will like it.

I'm probably overthinking it but I'm just a little scared that I threw away all my money like that. It was nearly all I had saved up back in Holmes Chapel. From the little job I had back there. If it turns out he isn't happy with it I'm gonna cry. It's not like I can just easily give it to someone else you know.

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It wasn't like any other party we usually go to. It was just Liam, Zayn, Niall, Willow, Eleanor and me. And Louis of course. It sounded like a miracle that Eleanor even came to be honest. She knows the others don't like her either.

She did not care at all tho. She acted like she was best friends with all of us and was actually being nice for once.

It still feels a little awkward when I see them kiss but I don't mind that much anymore. I just try to remind myself Louis is gay as fuck and suddenly the jealousy turns in comedy.

We were just having a little fun talking about random shit. When Willow proposed to do the presents. That's when I realized I left it in the fucking car.