︎ 𝟙𝟙 ~ 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦

988 35 20
                                    


I have been awake for a little while now but Louis is still holding me. His grip is tight and I don't really want to wake him up so I'm just waiting for him to wake up as well.

Until than I'm just on my phone trying to kill the time.

I suddenly felt him shifting and groaning a little.

"Goodmorning Sunshine." I said turning to face him.

"Harry why are we laying in your bed?" His voice was rough and deep. Not like it normally is. He sounded so fucking hot. No. I did not mean that. Well I do. But I don't- Nevermind.

"Well. You got quite intoxicated last night. So I thought it'd be better to let you stay over at my place. I didn't wanna bother your mum."

He smiled a little but still looked confused and didn't quite understand.

"So again. Why are we both sleeping in your bed?" He asked blinking his eyes trying to wake up.

"Are you uncomfortable all of a sudden? Last night you basically begged me to come lay with you. I wanted to sleep on the couch." I raised my eyebrows in amusement.

His went wide open and his cheeks turned a little red. "I did?" He asked while he seemed to mentally facepalm himself.

"Yeah. But I didn't mind. You were kinda cute when you snuggled up to me." He blushed and smiled a little.

"How bad was it?" He asked after a little while of silence.

"What do you mean?" I asked while searching through my closet for something to wear. I knew he was staring at me. I was only wearing boxers after all and I'm getting the feeling he actually is into me too.

"You know. How badly drunk was I and what happened?"

"It wasn't that bad to be honest. I had just been dancing with a random girl and when I came back you were doing shots. I don't know how long you've been doing them but you were pretty far gone so I put a stop to it. I searched for Willow. Which I might have to get into detail about later. I had told you to stay where you were and you did luckily.

So we were gonna walk out but uhm... that didn't really work out. You had a little trouble with walking so I picked you up and carried you to the car. Willow dropped us at the corner of the street and I walked you the last part.

You had fallen asleep on the backseat and didn't really wake up until I was gonna go to bed myself. Than all of a sudden you started groaning and told me to come lay with you. You made little grabby hands and I just did as you asked. I didn't want to wake my mum and I didn't really mind. You pulled me closer and fell asleep once you were all cuddled up to me." I explained.

Louis brushed his hand through his hair and started apologizing about what had happened last night. He seemed really frustrated with himself.

"I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable." He said. Why would he think that I'm uncomforta- oh of course, he doesn't know I'm bi. Or that I know he isn't straight either. Or that I have a little bit of a crush on him...

"It's okay Lou. Like I said. I don't mind. It didn't feel uncomfortable. It was kinda cute. You were so innocent and sweet." I smiled wide at him.

He tried to sit up straight but groaned reaching to his head.

"Having a hangover?" I said sarcastically. He groaned and shot me a glare. Basically telling me to shut up and stop talking.

"I'll get you some medicine. Wait a second." I walked out and searched for something to ease the pain.

He felt like shit the entire morning. We just watched some Friends reruns and cuddled on the couch. He borrowed a pair of sweatpants and a Nirvana shirt. He looked so cute and small in my oversized shirt. His hair was a mess but it still looked good in a way.

When he left he forgot to change and left his clothes at my place. Leaving with my Nirvana shirt and favorite sweatpants.

"So... Why don't you tell me what happened last night and why you were sleeping in a bed together?" My mum asked me the second Louis walked out the door.

"Louis got drunk and I didn't want to bother his mum. So I took him home with me. He started whining because he wanted to cuddle and I just went with it."

"Mhmm" she nodded sipping from her tea. Not believing a single word I said.

"What is wrong with two friends sleeping in the same bed? It's just sleeping in a bed!"

"Nothings wrong with that. Unless both of them aren't straight!" She said back with a little sass.

"So? I slept with Willow in the same bed and that never seemed to be a problem."

"Harry you were six!" She said back laughing.

I rolled my eyes and went back upstairs. She had a point and she wasn't wrong. But I'm not gonna admit I like him. Not yet.

A lot happened these last 24 hours and it was all one big question. Nothing feels certain right now.

It felt so good taking care of him last night and this morning as well. He literally told me he wanted me to flirt with him. And even though I'm not sure if he meant that. It still made my heartbeat raise.

Just like when I look into his eyes. I have been trying to deny it for a while now but I can't stop thinking about him. I hate it. But he's on my mind all the time.

Everything about him seems to become attractive and even his annoying side starts to make me happy...

But I don't even know what I'm feeling. Because I don't like him like that. At least I don't think so. I'm searching for something that's endgame. Someone I can spend the rest of my life with. Someone I see myself grow old with and I don't think that's Louis.

I'm just not sure about any of my feelings anymore. Especially after last night. Carrying him in my arms with his head on my shoulder. It felt so comforting. It was something different. Something I could get used to I guess.

I'm having trouble understanding what I'm feeling lately to be honest. I wish it wasn't so confusing. I always seem to have trouble with these kind of things. I don't fall easy for someone but when I do I fall hard. I just don't want my heart broken again.

I picked up my guitar. The electric one. I started pacing around my room before playing the first few notes of Is This Love from Whitesnake.

I sang my heart out and it's really relieving in a way

Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.

I sang my heart out and it's really relieving in a way.

I can feel my love for you growing stronger day by day
And I can't wait to see you again
So I can hold you in my arms

Is this love
That I'm feeling?
Is this the love
That I've been searching for?
Is this love?
Oh am I dreaming?
This must be love
Cause it's really got a hold on me
A hold on me

___________________________________

𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬             {𝐿.𝑆.}Where stories live. Discover now