!!!TRIGGER WARNING: DYSPHORIA!!!
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It's the second time I shower since the whole incident with Jake, and I feel gross, I feel horrible with every piece of clothing I take off.
You see, we have a terrible shower that is far from being trans-proof. Right in front of the glass cabin is a big mirror.
Apparently, my parents want to see themselves as they shower and get dressed?
But I don't.
And usually, I shower while looking the other way.
But this time, when I open the tap and warm water falls on my back, slides over my chest, travels down my legs, I find myself staring.
Even though the glass is clogged, I am able to see way too much already. I see a curvy girl with a feminine face and shoulder-length girly hair. I see a chest... a chest that has been touched. By someone who felt attracted to the girl's femininity. Her pretty looks. Her chest, even despite her attempts to hide it.
"You shouldn't try to hide such beautiful things."
I have a reason to hide them...
"You shouldn't hide such beautiful things."
It may be beautiful, but it's not me!
"You shouldn't hide such beautiful things."
Stop! It's not me!
The glass is all clogged now, but for some reason I wipe it, and I see the unfamiliar girl in the mirror again.
Who is she? Why is she here? Why is she in the mirror?!
The girl in the mirror blurs again, but this time because of the tears in my eyes as I back away.
No...
That's not me...
That girl, who looks like a complete stranger to me, is not me.
That girl who was kissed and touched... she is not me.
My back hits the tap, and as I slide down on the cold tiles, I accidentally turn the cold tap open completely. The cold water mixes with my hot tears as I hug my knees.
Who am I?
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Word count: 307
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Dysphoria is f*cking hell.
What if Jay accidentally turned the hot tap open tho-
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Escape || an LGBT+ story (DISCONTINUED)
Romance!!!DISCONTINUED!!! Jay is a soon-to-be-18-year-old nontransitioned and closeted transgender boy, who can't wait until the day he can escape his strict christian environment to transition. But his life is thrown into an arcade when it gets intertwine...
