Weak || Bang Chan

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Song:
BEWARE by Stray Kids
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Anderson Rose

Chan stood before me, arms cross with a tilted head as I leaned against the opposite wall to him, hands behind my back as I crossed my legs.

"You probably know what I'm going to say," he began, his voice deepened as he spoke.

The way his stare bored into my head felt like he'd leave holes in my eyes, the intensity making me want to squirm. I felt so small under his observation - I hated it. Like I said before, I hated that power he held over me.

I wanted to tell him to stop, to leave me alone and to mind his own business, but my mouth remained closed. Maybe it was because I was exhausted, feeling the weight of all the different emotions I had felt since I arrived in Seoul.

I breathed in, shaking my head, "Well, I hope it starts with an introduction."

He looked at me inquisitively.

"What?"

"An introduction," I reiterated, "You know, since the only words you have ever spoken to me are 'why is she here?' and then a threatening text message on Felix's phone."

"That's not what I wanted to talk about," Chan looked pissed. I secretly enjoyed the feeling of talking back to him, to not feel like a child in trouble anymore.

I found confidence within myself, "So you want to have an adult discussion without being on a first name basis?" I sarcastically replied, "Or did you want to just have a go at me because Minho and I have been getting along too well for your liking?"

Chan dropped his folded arms, his muscles flexing as they fell. His mouth opened and closed a few times like a lost fish, speechless. I don't think he's ever had a girl talk to him that way before.

He shook his head, screwing up his eyes for a second, "Can we get back to the point?"

I sighed, "Look, both Lix and Minho have told me about last night."

"Good, because I want you to-,"

"And I think you should know your role better," I interrupted him.

Chan narrowed his eyes at me, as if I had just said the most absurd thing he's ever heard, "Excuse me?"

"I've been coming to these shoots as Felix's closest friend, to support him and to support the others. I've known Hyunjin, Jisung and Seungmin for a long time now, never meeting them until I arrived here," I explained to Chan, his stare fixed on me. In any other occasion, it would've made me blush, but now I just felt mad with him.

"You've not even given me a chance; to allow yourself to get to know me. You make out like I'm some sort of criminal, here to break Minho's heart and to make his, and everyone else's, contracts terminate," I continued, "I don't understand why you see me like this?"

"Because you show up, you distract the others, you risk getting Minho photographed courting a girl just because you 'went to get dinner'," Chan was brimming seething anger, expressing it with rapid hand motions, "You're tempting Minho to get his contract terminated by JYP."

"I've never 'tempted' anyone to do anything!"

I came to a stand, my body becoming rigid with tense rage. I found it hard to control the way I was feeling. I was well and truly fucked off by this boy, thinking he could talk this way to me - someone who he hasn't even said a 'hello' to yet.

"It's almost like you're jealous to see Minho happy in my company," I spat. The words made more sense in my head and came tumbling out of my mouth before I could organise my thoughts, "He said that having dinner with me last night was the most relaxed he had been in a long time."

"The most relaxed he's been was when he's risking his career?" Chan retorted, folding his arms once more.

I threw my hands up in the air with exasperation, turning to pace back and forth before I replied, "As their leader and elder, you should be far more concerned with their well-being rather than which girl they fancy."

"As their leader and elder-," he mocked, leaning towards me, "-it's my business to be concerned with their well-being as well as making sure they still have a career."

I rolled my eyes, feeling like I wasn't reaching through to him, "Have you not seen how well I've clicked with all the boys?"

"A little too well, it seems," Chan muttered.

"And that's supposed to mean what? I'm some sort of flirt or whore?"

There was a silence. Chan didn't say anything, only his mouth ajar, but his silence spoke volumes.

With my tongue in my cheek, I slowly nodded my head in a hysterical amusement, kissing my teeth with my tongue. I was biting back tears now, refusing to even let me feel the familiar sting in my nose to indicate the flood gates would open.

"After today, you don't have to see me again," I stepped towards him, but he didn't back off. He only held his ground, staring me down, "It's what you want after all. I hope it pets your ego nicely."

I paced to the door, hand on the handle bar ready to push, but I paused, turning to see Chan. He was holding his opposite elbows, arms folded, looking to the ground.

"You know, it sucks," I started, my voice softer than before. Chan looked up to me, his sharp jaw flexing as he bit on his back teeth, "Felix always spoke of you so fondly. He thinks the world of you."

"What are you getting at?" Chan snapped at me, hands coming to his sides in a defensive stance.

I shook my head, he was proving my point.

"Felix's admiration for you always made me feel like you were such a brilliant person," I continued, "But now that filter is gone and I don't think at all the same as he does-,"

"-And you and I have still not even been acquainted."

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A/N: I feel like the song fits this? But idk lol
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