Emotions

chapter 31 ♥

I immediately rolled off alex to meet the face of my best friend or should I say soon to be ex best friend.

So many emotions were floating in the pool of her eyes. Anger, pain, hurt, disgust and most of all hate.

"Sophie I-" I couldn't complete what I had to say before she stormed out. Who am I kidding. I had nothing to say at all.

I quickly rushed out the room to catch up with her. Alex close by. She was near the door when I pulled her arm, trying to see if I can save our friendship, even though deep down I knew it couldn't be saved.

She looked at me with disgust and hate before yanking her arm out of my hand. "I trusted you Amanda, I was always there for you no matter what and the best you could do to repay me is sleep with my boyfriend, sorry I meant ex boyfriend" she spoke with venom laced in her voice.

"I'm so-" I attempted to apologize even though I know it'll fix nothing but she cut me off

"Turns out you're just a whore, like the rest" she paused and looked at the both of us with tears running down her cheeks. "How long has this been going on"

"Umm..since t-that party where you got really drunk" I told her hesitantly, my eyes fixed on the ground, I couldn't bear to look her in the eyes.

"Wow, I can't believe I've been a fool all these while" she paused as if something clicked in her head before she continued "he's the reason why you broke up with David right.?., you broke up with him because you've been fucking my boyfriend and you felt really guilty so you broke up with him. Where you ever gonna tell me.?., did you even love me Alex" alex who was silent all these while was about to say something but she beat him to it "fuck it, I don't wanna know"

"Sophie, I'm so sorry-"

"Don't you dare call me sophie, you lost that right when you decided to fuck this son of a bitch. You're dead to me, both of you. Don't you ever come close to me again. I  fucking hate you both, I hope you burn in hell" and with that she stormed out of the house and out of my life for good.

I crumbled to the floor and let the waterworks begin. In an instant alex was by my side consoling me but it wasn't working.

"It's gonna be okay" he mumbled softly in my ear as he cradled me in his arms.

I slightly pulled away and shook my head. "It's not gonna be okay, I just lost my best friend, it's never gonna be okay" I sobbed uncontrollably

He carried me to his bedroom and laid me gently on his bed and he jumped in beside me.

I sobbed for hours until I couldn't anymore and I just laid there starring into space.

"Are you hungry, I can order some pizza if you want. Your favorite" alex spoke softly to me.

I honestly get that he's trying hard to cheer me up and make me happy again but I don't think that will be happening soon, I just wanna be alone.

"Can you just take me home" I stated hoarsely, my voice is cracked due to all the crying.

"I don't think you should be alone right now baby" he caressed my cheeks softly.

"Please alex" I pleaded helplessly, I feel so pathetic and useless. I never felt this way before and all I wanna do is crawl in a hole and cry until it stops hurting. He sighed but agreed nonetheless.

The ride back to my apartment was long, awkward and extremely tense. I could tell alex is confused and has no idea what to do. He probably have never been in a situation like this. Heck, I've never been in such a situation. I just feel hopeless.