Arielle and Eclipse

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15

Nawala na din sa isip ko ang narinig kanina at dumiretso na agad sa canteen para bumili ng malalamon. The canteen was full of students when I went there. They were scampering and shouting nonsense as they choose themselves what to eat. I grimaced as I stared at the thick crowd.

Do I really have to go there? Mukhang kinailangan ko pang humarap sa isang madugong labanan bago makabili ng matinong pagkain, eh.

'Nung una ay nagdalawang-isip pa akong pumila at bumili ng makakain dahil sa nakita, but in the end, my grumbling stomach won the battle. Naalala ko kasi na sandwich lang 'yung nakain ko kanina kaya gutom na gutom talaga ako ngayon. And when I'm hungry, no hindrances nor obstacles can stop me. Basta gutom ako, at kailangan ko nang kumain.

Unfortunately, mukhang pahirapan pa talaga. I just hate crowded places. Especially when there are times that you really need to squeeze yourself to get in. May mga times pa na itutulak ka ng sinumang mga walang modong nilalang sa Earth na akala mo naman kung sino umasta.

Also, there is a possibility na masiko ang boobs ko and that surely fucking hurts. Tho, I think I have none.

I stopped at what I thought.

Napatingin ako sa dibdib ko at napaisip bigla. Flat ba ako? Feel ko din kasi hindi naman ganun ka-flat 'yung boobs ko. Hindi sya ganun kalaki at hindi din kaliit. Sakto lang, kumbaga. I think it's enough to flaunt and boast whenever a bitch or hoe is trying to win herself over you when it comes to showing off boobs. Or an asset to act demure and shy and have small boobs.

Umangat ang isang daliri ko papunta sa dibdib ko. I was wondering onto something when I looked at my chest. Is a big boob really an asset?

My brows slightly knitted at what I asked and unknowingly poked on my left boob. Medyo napangiti pa ako nang maramdamang malambot 'yun. My fingers bounced a little but it was enough for me to feel contented and relieved at what I was thinking a while ago.

Hindi masyadong malaki o maliit. Slight lang. Well, atleast, may boobs, diba? Enough for a baby to suck and breastfeed one day. Kesa naman wala. 'Yun ang pinakamalungkot. So, I should be thankful that I have this no matter what the size is. And atleast, hindi na ako gumagamit ng baby bra until now.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang ma-realize ang mga nasa mga naisip. What the fuck, Arisxandra? Did you really think of that? Ano na bang pumapasok sa utak mo at naisip mo ang tungkol dun at sa boobs?

Umangat ako ng tingin at maingat na inilibot ang mga mata sa paligid, trying to locate someone who has just witnessed how stupid I was while poking my own boob. Nakahinga naman ako nang maluwang nang makitang mukhang walang mag- aabalang tumingin sa'kin as they were all so busy with their own worlds.

I rolled my eyes heavenwards. Why the fuck did I even do that?

Oh, hell! I'm just hungry. Right, gutom lang 'to.

Halos ilang minuto pa ang hinintay ko bago tuluyang kumonti ang mga estudyante sa canteen at pumila. Okay lang naman na matagalan ako dahil mataas ang oras na binigay sa'min para sa break time. But I am really hungry at sobrang sakit na ng tiyan ko kaya binilisan ko ang paglalakad papunta sa counter.

I was pondering as to what to eat kasi gutom na gutom talaga ako and stared at the menus above. Nasa serving counter na ako nang mag-desisyon kung ano ang mga kakainin.

"Tatlong serving ng rice, dalawang steak, dalawang burger, coke, and two sandwiches." I told the server and calmly fished the wallet in pocket.

Naisip ko pa na baka kulang pa 'yun dahil parang gusto ko talagang lumamon nang todo ngayon pero pinigilan ko ang sariling mas damihan pa ang order. Mas lalaki ang gastos ko kaya 'wag nalang. I better save money.