katy | l.h

five

I stopped running as I got to the wall that Luke and I were sitting on, on our date. I leaned against it, before sliding down and clutching my sides as I cried.

"Katy?" Luke asked breathlessly as he approached me. I looked up and met his eyes, concern was shown clearly in his features. He sat down next to me as I stretched my legs out. He looked at me before speaking, "Katy, don't cry," he sighed as he put his arm around me before pulling me into his side.

"I'm sorry," I whispered.

"Hey, you have nothing to be sorry for!" He said. "But do you wanna tell me how you know Ashton, and why you're crying?" He asked, I nodded before drying my tears as I rested my head on Luke's shoulder.

I took a few breaths before explaining, "Ashton and I were... together, at one point," I begun, "it was two years and 8 months ago, when it started, and it lasted for 8 months. He was 18, I was 17," I sighed, staring into the distance.

"Did you love him?" He asked. I nodded slowly.

"Yes, he was all I ever wanted. He made me so happy, made me see light in my most dark moments, he was the type of guy who would do anything to see me smile, you know? I fell for him so hard, and every day I continued to fall for him. I loved him with everything I had, and in the end, he left. I didn't see it coming. I waited and waited for him to come back, but he never did. Tonight was the first time I'd seen him in two years."

"And now? Do you still love him?" He asked quietly.

"He broke me, he took a huge piece of me with him when he left, but yes. Yes I do." I sniffed, my eyes burning as they began to water.

"You know," he breathed, "you can't always be fixed by the same person who broke you," he said quietly. I looked up at him, into his eyes. Luke had beautiful eyes, the kind that you could get lost in, and I guess I did. He gave me a small smile before kissing my forehead lightly. "I can't believe that during the time you two were together, I didn't meet you," he sighed, but I chose to ignore the comment as I didn't want to know why Ashton never mentioned Luke, Calum or Michael.

"What if I can never love someone as much as I did with him again?" I asked as I looked away.

"You will. You can't stay broken forever. Someone will put all your broken pieces back together, and that piece he took with him when he left, will be replaced by the love that they show you," he said, I could feel his gaze on me and I knew that there was more to what he was saying. It seemed as if he was talking about himself.

I sighed, "where do we go from here?" I asked, leaning my head back on his shoulder.

"You need some closure," he sighed. "You both do, and then, if you would want to, I'd like you to be my girlfriend," he said and I quickly straightened up.

"Luke," I sighed. "I don't know, it might be too soon?"

"But Katy, we've known each other for two years, sure we only started dating properly a few days ago but in a few weeks, who knows what could happen?" He reassured.

"I'm just scared that I'll get hurt again," I said, looking down at my hands.

"Hey," he said, lifting my head up by my chin so that I was looking at him, "I'm not going to hurt you," he smiled sadly.

I didn't reply as I wasn't sure what to say.

"Come on," he gestured, "I should take you home," he stood, pulling me up with him.

"Wait," I paused. "I should speak to him," I said nervously and Luke nodded in agreement.

"If you're sure," he said and we started walking over to him.

I could feel my chest getting heavy again, but I forced the pain away and slowly took some deep breaths as we approached him.

"It's okay," I stopped Luke, "I need to do this on my own," I smiled sadly, and he slowly nodded in understanding before walking over to Calum.

I continued to walk over to Ashton before stopping dead behind him. I took a sharp breath before tapping him on his shoulder, before he turned around. Our eyes instantly met each other and my breath hitched in my throat.

You can do it, I told myself.

"Hi," I said quietly.

It felt like a lifetime before he finally spoke.

"Hi," he smiled.