T I K T O K

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trigger warning!!

~ this chapter will
cover topics sensitive to
some readers . it will talk
about self harm , suicidal thoughts ,
and mention an ed , if you're triggered
or uncomfortable by those topics please read this chapter with care and caution . i don't want to
upset anyone . i'm also not trying to glorify
these topics in any shape or form . i'm bringing
awareness to them . remember you are loved :)

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"you're sure you'll be okay here bri?" jaden asks the girl who's still laying on his bed, she was wrapped up in a blanket with jadens favorite hoodie on with the faint tune of a random 90s rock band playing on jadens alexa device.

"please jaden." briar looks at him,
"go have fun. i'll be fine."

"okay." he nods and kisses her forehead tucking the blanket around her even more tightly then it was, like a mom tucking her toddler in,
"please don't do anything stupid while i'm gone." he says opening the door

"i won't jesus." briar says

"i love you." jaden smiles weakly

"i love you too." she says closing her eyes, and with that, the door closes and leaves her all alone in a dark bedroom.

eventually she decided to get up and take a shower, since it had been a couple days since she had done that. she folded her dirty clothes on the toilet in their shared bathroom and started the shower water. she let the steam cover the glass door before getting in, letting the boiling water sting her back. she threw her head back and the water ran down her hair and her face. she slumped down against the tile and sat on the ground in a ball, her eyes welling with tears.

you're so pathetic briar.
you should listen to
your comments and just
kill yourself.

she squeezed her head trying to knock the thoughts out, but there was no use. the depression was eating at her mind and her body. she was loosing weight. she looked sickly.

she stood back up, her hands shaky. she reached for jadens razor and took the blade off of the head and tossed it around, back and fourth in her hands. should she really do this again? she promised jaden she wouldn't do anything stupid, but he promised not to cheat on her.

she took a deep breath letting the razor skim her tanned thigh. she winced in pain, she forgot how  uncomfortable it was. she smiled to herself watching the blood drip down her leg, and in return she did it a couple times more.

she put the blade back on jadens razor and turned the water off and wrapped a white towel around her. she put on a pair of pajama shorts and one of jadens sweatshirts and brushed her wet hair out. she put product in it and washed her face totally forgetting about to the blood on her thighs.

she opens his bedroom door to go check on buddy in her cage. her bare feet hit the wood floor and she hears giggling from the living room. she comes down off the last step and sees amelie and avani playing with buddy.

"oh hi guys." briar smiles

"hi bri." avani smiles,
"we didn't know you were here."