coconuts and strawberries | draco malfoy

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"hey guys" you smile, but only Ron smiles back. "hey y/n!" he says enthusiastically, before it goes silent. "hey Harry..." he doesn't respond, just sort of nods. you look at Hermione who is avoiding eye contact, holding her books tightly in her chest. "Hermione?" you ask, but she also doesn't respond.

"whats up withl them?" you ask Ron, him stuttering and unable to get a word out. "you and malfoy... you're like... what?" Hermione asks, but still avoids eye contact with you. "we're together... in a relationship". it is painfully silent again, which is making you more anxious and uncomfortable by the second.

"is that a problem?" you ask, finally speaking up. Hermione and Harry look at eachother like they're speaking telepathically, before Hermione let's out a small sigh and finally makes eye contact with you. "you know what he's done to us, especially Harry. i don't know how Ron isn't mad"

"Ron is actually happy for me, he can put his past aside for my happiness unlike you" "well it's kind of hard when all Malfoy has ever done is bully us for things we can't control. he bullies Harry for having dead parents, Ron for having little money and me for having muggle blood"

"okay... i'm sorry about that but i can't take responsibility for his actions..." "and he will never take responsibility for them either, he will never change" "he already has-" "to you y/n! no one else" you stay quiet, Ron and Harry feeling awkward with the tension. "so what now then? you're just going to force me to leave him?"

"no, do whatever you want. i'm just not going to be here to support you through it" Hermione responds, grabbing Harry's hand and walking away. you watch her and scoff, "what did i do?" you ask Ron, him standing by your side with his hand on your shoulder. "give them time... they're just getting used to it"

he walks away and follows Hermione and Harry, while you watch them all and feel a pit in your stomach. you've lost two of the people closest to you because of who you are dating, that doesn't seem right to you. losing Hermione hurts enough but Harry? your bond with him may not seem big but you share a great deal of love for him, the both of them.

The next few days are spent hanging out with Draco and his friends. He's learning to be affectionate around other people, but he isn't quite there yet. he's still very uncomfortable with showing affection in public so the most he will do around his friends is hold your hand.

As soon as you're alone, he will show you the most affection he can. He tries his hardest but he's not quite used to all the touching, it can make him unsettled sometimes.

He's still uncomfortable around Pansy, it's making her angrier and more envious of you by the day. you still don't know why but you're respecting his wishes not to talk about it. You've been trying to ignore the fact that voldemort is definitely coming back to try harm Harry and possibly you too.

He told you that you'd find out what he meant soon, that still worries you and makes you unable to sleep at night. Hermione has been crashing with Ginny the last few nights, not wanting to face you. In classes you sit with Draco and Blaise while Hermione, Ron and Harry sit together.

Ron still checks up on you and hangs out with you when he can but it isn't the same when he's mostly with the others.

Right now you and Draco are in his room reading together, when he suddenly puts the book down. you look up at him, watching his thinking face. "are you okay?" you whisper, him looking down at you without his expression changing. "do you want to know why i'm uncomfortable around Pansy?" he asks softly.

"yeah... if you're okay with telling me" you respond while sitting up beside him, he sits up with you and faces you, both of your legs crossed.

"okay so... no judgement right?" "no judgement" "and you'll keep it a secret?" "i promise, what's up?" he fidgets with his hands in his lap, "well... i don't remember when it was... around the time that i told you i liked you, she found out. she found a copy of the letter i wrote in my room.

and when she found it she confronted me. she asked me what it was, why i have it, who it's for. i tried to get her to stay out of my business but she just guessed it was you and wouldn't stop pushing. she blackmailed me just like she did to the both of us recently, she told me not to do anything about it or she would tell my father.

at the time that was concerning, my father isn't a very accepting man when it comes to all these feelings and emotions, relationships. he prefers i focus on being the best at this school rather then become committed. that's not why I'm uncomfortable. that night she... well she tried to seduce me.

i told her my feelings for you weren't a joke and i didn't like her, but she refuses to believe that. before you came to hogwarts i kind of pretended i liked her... i don't know why but i guess i just wanted to know what it felt like to be with someone like that. although it was dreadful, i hated it. she never did anything affectionate...

all she wanted was... dirty stuff. i refused to do it so she got angrier over time and kept pushing. when i kept telling her i wasn't interested in her like that she stopped trying and moved on to Blaise. she would still flirt but not try to get with me. Then when she found that letter it started again, although this time she succeeded in her wishes"

"what do you mean by that Draco?" "she... well she wanted the same thing, to do the... dirty. when i said no again she just gave up asking, and did it anyway. i had no way to stop it, i already said no, she wouldn't give up. Then she left and i... cried"

you go completely silent, processing what he just said.

you see him looking emotional, like he could cry again. "you kept my mind off it, you kept me feeling happy and distracted from thinking about it but as soon as i wasn't around you it's all i thought about" "oh my god... Draco i'm so sorry" you pull him into your chest, holding him tight.

He lets out a few tears, holding onto you even tighter then you are to him. "i'm sorry" he whispers, but you just shake your head. "you have no reason to be... it was all her, not you. it's okay" you whisper back, holding him in your arms for a few minutes.