coconuts and strawberries | draco malfoy

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you're having trouble sleeping, tossing and turning.

you have no idea what you're going to do. if you tell him, chances are he will want something to happen but are you ready for that?

and if you don't tell him, it could ruin things. he could lose feelings and you'll be stuck having feelings for someone who isn't interested.

you think about what Ron said, his words rummaging through your mind.

you just broke up with Cedric, are you ready for someone new? you were just cheated on, and the person you like was once very heartless.

he went from bullying you and your friends to having feelings for you and being sweet to you. you wonder if it's an act or his true self. you wonder how he would treat you if you were to tell him.

you start thinking about your friends reactions, Draco himself and how he would react. you start to worry more but try your hardest to shake off the thought.

the next morning you're headed for class, still wondering if you should say anything.

you walk in the classroom and begin feeling much more nervous now that you're in a room with him. your thoughts are all over the place, as you approach your friends and sit beside them.

you sit at a table for four, next to Ron while Harry and Hermione are on the other side of him.

"hey guys" "hey" they all reply in unison. Ron leans over and whispers to you, "do you know what you're doing yet?" "no, i'm trying not to think about it right this second" you whisper back.

"and what are you two whispering about?" Hermione asks nosily. "nothing important" Ron responds.

you look around the classroom and your eyes fall on that particular table only 6 feet away from you. you look away quickly when you see Draco's head turning to look over at you, not wanting to make eye contact.

"i think i'm gonna talk to him after class" you whisper. Ron looks at you with a small smile, "good on you".

when the class is over and you see Draco leaving already, you hurry to get your books together and rush out the door. you follow him around the corner and try to catch up with him. "Draco!" he turns around and stops walking, waiting for you to catch up. you stop in front of him and catch your breath.

"hey, i have to talk to you about something kind of serious" "oh, what's it about?" "i can't go into detail right now but can you meet me tonight at 7?" "yeah, where at?" "um, that area you showed me. i know how to get there and i'll make sure no one follows" "alright, you okay though?" "yeah, it's not bad or anything... i'll see you then"

"alright... see you then y/l/n" "later Malfoy" you smile and walk away, hoping for the best tonight. your anxious self likes to rehearse what you're going to say in the mirror, but you cringe at yourself instantly. "just wing it" you whisper to yourself, checking the time on the clock.

you get dressed into something comfortable and leave the room, you had to lie to Hermione about where you were going earlier. you make your way to the spot, double and triple checking that no one followed you, but most people aren't out at this time anyway.

you see him already sitting there, a book in his hands. "and he reads" you whisper with a smile on your face. you walk over to where he is and sit beside him, he closes his book and smiles. "hey y/n" "hi, you're reading?" "yeah, seems that way" "so you read too, definitely had some misjudgement here".

"so what is it you wanted to talk about?" "oh right... uh i need to confess something" "go ahead" "i have feelings for you..." you whisper, looking up at him and seeing the confused look on his face. "what?" "i have feelings for you, and i lied about my Amortentia, it was snow, flowers, your hair and your cologne"

it goes quiet, both of you just keeping eye contact but not saying anything.

"i don't really know how to process that" "neither did i..." "i mean i'm happy as hell, don't think i'm not. i'm just not a very reliable person" "in what way?" you ask curiously. "i have... a weird family. it wouldn't be allowed to be public and that's just not fair on you... i'm meaning if anything did happen..."

"oh..." you stare down at the ground, feeling a little upset if you were being honest with yourself. you weren't sure if anything would happen between the two of you but you had some hope.

"hey" he whispers as he lifts your chin with his index finger, you look into his eyes, both maintaining eye contact for a moment before he speaks. "don't lose hope, i'll figure something out" he assures you, his finger still under your chin. you nod ever so slightly, but noticeably.

"i guess it's my turn to wait" you laugh slightly, causing him to smile. "i want you, but there's some difficulties i have to figure out first, and then i'll prove i'm worth it" "how are you gonna do that?" "it's a surprise, don't ruin it" he jokes.

"i should go" you whisper, still close to him. "sure, i'll see you tomorrow y/n" "see you tomorrow Malfoy" you give him a warm smile, before getting up off the ground with his help.

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