Inevitable Turns

32.Letting it all out,does it help?

Joshua's P.O.V

I tried calling her all night long but she hasn't picked my call and now I'm worried sick.I've tried every possible place she could be and no reply.Hell,I even tried the hospital but she isn't there and I'm glad.The part I don't understand the most is why she called me only to end the call without speaking.Did she want to speak about something?I mean I thought we weren't on speaking terms and then what if something bad had happened to her?She hasn't come back at all.I stayed up the whole night worried sick and she still hasn't called or texted and I'm losing my God damned mind with all the freaking possibility of what could have happened to her.She has to come back home at some point or check her phone.How hadn't she checked her phone,ever single thing went to voicemail,making me worry more.

Pacing around the room I try and think straight but nothing is letting me.She's been distant,she's lied,she's asked for space and I've accepted everything but why couldn't she just let go now.She hurt me and I'm ready ot let it slide because I love her and nothing could hurt me more than her leaving me.It took time to accept everything because if hurt me to know the love of my life could just lie to me without me knowing.Now,I feel it was mostly my ego that really got hurt than my heart.People lie and I usually spot it it's something I do,being observant.I thought I could spot it with iz as well and the fact that I couldn't bugged me but what hurt my heart was that she hid such a huge thing from me.I mean I trusted her and expected the same thing back.But in the end everything worked out but us both.I ended up messing us and that hurt worse than anything.I love her more than my own freaking life and the thought of her leaving me haunted me for the past many days.I've never seen her so angry or cold and that made by tense and anxious.I've tried making some coffee but it was hopeless.Just looking at the powder I felt like hurling so I leave the thought and continued pacing around the main area waiting for her to come back,come back to me so I could beg her to end all this.It was killing me and I wouldn't be able to give her anymore space because if I did I'd lose everything starting from my mind.

I'm sitting on the couch my head in my hands as I hear someone speak from outside.A strong,rough voice that has to be a guy. "Let me know if you ever need to stay the night,babe,"the voice chuckles as I ignore it.

"Sure thing honey,"I hear her voice and the familiar chuckle. "I'm gonna miss you,"she says as my heart frezzes.Who is she talking to?

"I know I'll miss you more sugar,"the guy says and my blood boils. Was this where she was last night,with another guy while I was worried sick.

"Alright enough already.If anyone hears anything they might end up thinking things,"she chuckles and my mind sees red.She stayed with a guy and he made her laugh.He was talking to her with here I am unable to talk to her or speak nor did she reply to my text or call all because of some guy.

"I don't see the problem in that,"the guy says as I pull the door open with so much force I'm surprised it didn't fall of it's hinges. The first thing my eyes spot is Iz dressed in a guy's t-shirt and sweatpants making my breathing halt.Why was she in another guys clothes? She didn't,could she? I couldn't even be sure after everything between us.I was ready to forgive her but trust her again that was going to be hard but somehow possible.Her eyes were full of pain and something different and that was hate.

"So this is the douchebag," the voice says.I had almost forgotten he exsisted. The way he looks at me makes me want to punch his entire jaw off along with his teeth and burse his lip completely until he knew who's woman he touched.Looking back and forth of them I could tell it was his clothes she was wearing coz he has the exact same t-shirt on and they were twinning. Something that always happened with Iz and me.She replaced me.She replaced me with some complete worthless piece of trash that was just using her and from the looks of it he already used her.

"Dwayne I think it's best if you leave,"she smiles at the guy after her eyes spot my hands already balled into fists.This guy was completely asking for it and how was she fine with him?Just who the hell was he,she said she never had an ex so who was the guy remained the question?

"Yeah,I'd suggest you listen to the woman,"I spit at him as he chuckles,pissing me off even more.The guy was completely testing my patience.

"Or what would you do use your fists.Like that helped you problems,"he says sinisterly,purposely testing me.Even after knowing this and not paying hear I do just the opposite.The anger controlling my body.

"I'm really sure it will help me right now,"I say taking a step towards about to get a swing at him but Iz gets in the way,making me hand stop midway as I gasp.Her eyes were closed ready for the impact as I freeze there.

"Bells,"the guy says turning her around to face him before I can do anything.

"I'm fine,"she tells him as rage fills his eyes.

"God damn it.Why did you come in the way.I wasn't supposed to hit you Iz.God,I'm sorry-,"I say but she cuts me short.

"Have you really lost your mind?You were going to hit him Josh.What's wrong with you?"she yells at me as I stand there shocked.From everything in the world she was worried dead about his guy then her own boyfriend worried sick abut where she was. "Honestly I can't even recognize you anymore,"she say her eys not meeting mine.

"Don't you dare say that.You were the one who had me worried sick,you hadn't come back home,picked my call or checked my texts Iz?Instead you sleep the night with some random cheap guy just to prove what?That you can get guys after you,that I have to make sure I hurt all of them so they never touch you or look at you that way again.What do you want me to do Iz?I eliminated one guy and then you bring the next.Melody called you a whore and I defended you but right now I have no idea who I call my girlfriend,"I yell and at the end I feel a sharp sting on my face.Tears stream down Iz's face as I realized what she did.She slapped me.She freaking slapped me for some random guy.Was this what I meant to her,was this what our relationship was;a comical joke to her?Did I mean nothing to her?Was the days we spend together,every kiss and touch a complete lie.I feel my eyes burn and it isn't until I feel the wetness on my cheek that I realize I'm crying.She slapped me.I meant nothing.

"Well I have no idea who you are either Joshua Coleman.I never want to see you or talk to you ever again.I despise you so much that I hate myself for everything I did and you inflicted on me.I hate the day we first crossed paths and wish we never did.I loathe you Josh.I loathe you for everything you did to me,"she yells as she storms off leaving me there broken and crushed.The guy looks at me with disguist but that's nothing compared to what her words have done to me.After they enter the lift my body falls to the floor as everything blanks out.

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