Inevitable Turns

34.Love irris;the flower or your eye

Isabella's P.O.V

After yesterday's lit class I'm riding with Dwayne to Josh and my dorm room. His bruised face haunted me last night and still is. Was that from kick-boxing ?Who did he even fight against? I thought he was supposed to be good but the bruises on his face proved otherwise. He got hurt and those wounds looked pretty bad and the way his lip was busted was utterly horrible. I wanted to kiss him everywhere to take away his pain and suffering but I couldn't what he did, didn't entitle him to deserve any of my care.I needed to get over him but it wasn't possible because I was still hurting and didn't really want to accept the entire thing. Josh and I were supposed to be lovers, get married and have children; obviously the girl first and then the boy so maybe we could have twins to make things easier for me.We'd both be highly accomplished and give our children to best life,they'd be happy and so would we;we would be in love.

"Bells,"Dwayne says taking my hand in his and it's only then that I realize the tears streaming down my face.I wanted a future with him an I wasn't getting it and I had to accept it.I never thought so much of our future but now that it's gone that's all that I can dream of;the what ifs.

"I'm fine I guess,"I laugh a bit but end up sobbing. "I can't do it Dwayne.it hurt so bad every time I see him.The pain is excruciating. I want to push him away I really do.I want o move on but I can't.He's messed me up and I can't pick up the pieces of my life again,not when he's constantly there reminding me of everything we had and he destroyed,"I sob as he rubs my hand.

"Everything is going to be alright,"he coos my me as the tears stain my top. "It will hurt.Break-ups hurt only when you truly love someone Bells and you loved him.You still do,even after everything he's done but the real question you have to answer is are you going to forget everything you had with him without knowing everything or are you going to get to know why he left you can finally move on.You aren't going to move on just because you want to.It's your heart that's hurt and it's stubborn. Your heart controls your mind right now.Feelings cloud judgment people say buy that isn't true feeling help guide judgement.What you need to do is find out what you truly want.Not just your mind but also your heart.Don't force yourself because of everything, instead try looking at it in his view and analyses everything, maybe he wasn't all in fault after all.Love is dense and makes you feel everything in the most highest stage, be it love, lust, pain,embaressement or anything else.I believe you'll make the right decision," he says leaving me utterly speechless as my mind goes through what he just spoke.

The rest of the drive I remain in my thoughts and Dwayne tells me we reached. Hopping out I take the elevator. I know he isn't goin to be home which fits perfectly for me to sneak in,take my things and leave.

"Josh,"I hear a voice scream happily as my eyes spot a girl on my bed.Seeing me she frowns.

"What are you doing here?" I say and who the crap are you?,my head thinks.I'vr never seen her ever before.

"The name is Victoria but Josh calls me Vicky and as for you...I think Victoria would do fine,"she snorts as I just stare at her confused. "Let me guess you're her,the girl who couldn't even please him no matter how many times you tried.You should hear the way he moans by name,holy.Christ he feels so good and the way he wants too make me deserve him.It's enough to make me cum.Just looking at you I can see why he wasn't even into in,"she says getting out of my bed with her chest only covered in a bra and her legs wirth her jeans.She looks at the photo frame Josh has of us both, slaming it down as I try and ignore her walking to take out my remaining things.

"Why did you come though?"she asks me as I try not to roll my eyes but do it anyway.

"To take away my stuff.Don't worry you can have the bedsheets,it's all yours,"I smile disgustingly at her but what she does next makes me look away to not recount memories.She takes Josh's t-shirt putting it covering her chest.