Inevitable Turns

54.You're gonna be who you're gonna be

Isabella' P.O.V

A lot has changed since the start of the winter break in NYU a week later.I'm no more there but Josh tells me about how the literature classes are going on since I'm no more a part of it.The literature class was more like fairy,all of us friends together joking,going out and enjoy the company of each other.I smile remembering about my first day in that class,how I dreaded Josh siting with me thinking it was a cosmic joke of the universe being played against me,with Cass siting behind me when she had a crush on him,that being when Prog Goldings was our Professor.The guy was old and I'd be lying if I said I liked him.Tyler was new and yes everyone was pissed at him for appearing after our assignment,everyone but Cass.The look on Josh's face when Ty entered was legendary and that was after our entire argument.It's funny to believe that, that's when Josh knew he fell of me,the brunette with the crazy aurburn tips and in captivating eyes as he's say,bringing a smile on my face.Life has changed a lot and I'm happy and content with th e way things have turned out,everything except the thing with my dad.I still haven't talked to him nor picked his calls coz I'm annoyed and frustrated at him and don't want to risk having another row with him.The second being I know he might really do something like stopping to play my tution fees if tell him I'm staying with Josh as in just us to alone.I now find myself wondering if it would have been the same cases if I had mom in my life but then again in such places those two matched.A fact being I know it would have been my mom talking to my dad about Josh and there came the bomb.My parents obviously manage to mess things up in my life and somehow I've had amazing guys helping me out.Well,not guys but Josh and Dwayne.I know they'll always be there for me and I want the same for them.

The second thing that has changed is Maddie and Aiden broke up during the winter break.Apparently things weren't working out so well between them for quite some time and they tried to a lot and figured that they were better as friends without the awkward in between.Somehow they didn't feel it was right being together in a romantic and intimate way.Maddie said she was sad but she knew thing weren't really that great after her coming out of coma,that she had been struggling and didn't want to come in the way of Aiden and wanted to be there to support him as a friend and surprising it is that awkward between hem.They acknowledge the fact that they were together ad that therir friendship matter the most in the entire thing.Maddie told me that Aiden was the one who suggested it since everything was the way it was so after trying and trying Maddie agreed to finally end think on good terms.They both seem more happier these days like a weights lifted of their shoulders if you ask me.That got me into a lot of thinking about Josh and I,we both we're friends too at first-even if Josh admits he never knew which category I belonged to from the start but friendship wasn't really the place I was placed in.Well he believes it was love at first sight with coke all over his shirt and I guess maybe it was for him,the thought makes me chuckle on the day somehow it's really going to be an interesting story for our kids.We both were friends and then feel in love but things are amazing between us.every love story was different and special in it's own way even if isn't one with an happily ever after ending it has a story,lessons and preciousness to it that nothing can change but the two lovers themselves.The words to end,reason and build a relationship truly lies in the hands and mouth of the two lovers.No matter what the situation like in Josh and my case the words to end it was with us and even after every challenges. test and inevitable turn on our way we made it through the storm and the billion of emotions holding ontot he only and true thing that was our love for one another.

Now that I'm not there in lit class Josh and Cass sit together and have a good time joking and annoying Ty and it's pretty funny especially when the professor your annoying in legally bonded with you in marriage and a mini versions of him and her lies in her belly.Overall the group misses me and I go them too but I'm stuck here busy in my work while Josh is at work.It's already feburary and a Friday with Josh's birthday in two weeks and I have no idea what I'm going to be doing.Do I have a mini party calling friends over to the apartment or go out?Does he want us both to be celebrating it together or what,my head aches over the thought.I want his twentieth birthday to be amazing since me truly made my special last year.Picking my phone I see a notification from Cass. 'Guess she couldn't hide forevers.Double sided hyprocrite',it reads with a video.Wondering what it is I press the video it's a recording at a mall.The camera moves around a lot barely having anyone focus making we wonder why would Cass send something as barbaric as this and them I get my answer.

The camera focused on a group of woman and then I notice Maddie and one of her friend Susan and some more people dressed pretty well.I recognise on of them as a Vogue model,must be her friends from L.A.My thoughts go back to Cass comment what did that mean?The girls talk amongst themselves about some party at Nialls and my eyes widenen when Susan speaks.

"Like finally girl,you got some sex.I never understood why you wasted your time with a virgin when all you had to do was go back to daddy,"

"Stop it,"Maddie flushes glaring at Susan as they all chuckle teasing her with a name that leaves me shocked.Niall.O my God,she was with Niall,she wow...Okay,I have no right to judge who she sleeps with but all I hope that it's after she broke up with Aiden.Niall,really?How didn't I see that and the way she is blushing.My heart breaks for Aiden.Wasted your time on a virgin,how dare she?People value their virginity and it isn't a bad thing coz it truly means a lot more to you them some chemical and hormonal reaction and euphoric waves.It was showing love in a physically form with a person you really see a future with.Though some people don't see the same way judging someone based on their choice of their own virginity isn't right coz it's nor your decision but theirs.Some people treasure their body and aren't ready to give it to someone else until they are damn sure that's what they want.It isn't about what everyone is doing but you're right time and decision.

"I mean seriously he wasn't interested in screwing me and damn was I depressed,"Susan laugh soff with the other girls as the camer moves to their feet. "And don't get me started on that fake fashion bruntee,"everone chuckles. "Like the entire lot of those cheapster.The only reason they were go was coz you had money I bet they knew it

"Susan she's Izzie and can we not do this,"Maddie's voice sways as my eyes widenen.Fake Fashion bruntee,me?

"Don't tell me those cheapters"

I completely pity you for even being around people as low as them,they won't even know own thing straight from the other.How did you stay in it.I've seen how small the rooms are and if it weren't for your parents helping you out from that crap hold I know I'd be visitng for your funeral.It's so small,it's like highly claustrophobic and the closet space,Omy god,"she say dramatically.

"You're so overexaggerating,"Maddie says as a shuffling off hager of clothes is heard.

"Over exaggeration?Even my servants live in a room bigger than that and you're higher than any gutter rat,"another of the voices says.

"But hey one of them did give me a good time but I don't remember that poor things name.I mean the look on his face whn he was me naked,"another one laughs.

"Gross you had sex with one of them?"Susan's voice says.

"It's just a one night stand Susan,"the voice says shrugging.

"Though honestly Mad how do you do it?"Susan's voice asks with curiosity.

"I don't know I'm just different around them since they are the way that they are,"Maddie says.

"You mean,cheapter from the dumps ready to grab any bit of gold they get,"the first voice chuckles.

"Alright and you guy are you'll.I've lived with you guys forever so I thing I'm my real self with you'll.It gets really hard being around them some times,the façade I have to keep on,it's tiring.I never realized it until Niall and I spoke at the tattoo shop,"Maddie says as my yes blow out.She agreed to that,that we the people who took her in,care and befriended her to be cheapters from the dumps-God I'm getting a head ache.She has to be kiding me when I helped her through with so much especially when everything came out and she practically wanted to change everything about her life,She said she hated everything and the way that her life was but that was the exact opposite.

"So when you ditching the loser?Come bak to Cali girl we're planning a skinny dip,"Susan says as the rest shriek as the video solely end up with me in a mess

Wow,is the only words I have.I can't believe it,I can't believe Maddie would back stab and betrayal us that way.That she's choose her Cali friends over us when she said we were the best she ever meet.What truly bugged me was that she didn't stand up for us when we would have undyingly without missing a hard beat do anything for her.Guess this was life.I go over the way she spoke the alright could mean two thing either shutting them up or agreeing and I don't believe Maddie would do such a thing.It was highly impossible but then again people aren't always what they seem to be.