Inevitable Turns

60.Never feel like you lack,coz I'm here

Isabella's P.O.V

Feeling myself shake I slowly open my eyes as memories of the day flood my head.I want to cry but my eyes can't do it anymore and I know it's pointless.I'm drained both physically and emotionally.

"You'll can take this room,"I hear Mr. Rivera say as I return back into this world.Looking up my eyes connect with Josh's calming my mind that was wondering wher I was and with who for I don't know what reason. Thanking Mr. Rivera Josh walks into a room and I wonder where we are as I look around at the room.

"Reed's house since it's closer,"he says walking us into a bathroom as I stare at him dumbfound.

"What are are you doing?" I ask as he gently places me in the shower.

"You need to bathe and get a good night rest.Tomorrow is going to be a busy day,"he removes the ring from my finger but I pull my hand back.He isn't going to leave me,he doesn't get to remove his ring,not today.Tears threaten to fall as evret little bit of my tries to crumble.

"I don't want to bathe,"I tell him defiant.

"You need to let me care for you Iz,please,"his eyes full of worry as he begs. Now realizing what he was up to I nod,too tired to take care of myself.Removing his ring and bracelet I give it to him asa he stares at it letting me know that removing these pieces of jewellery holds to significate a meaning to both of us after everything we've been through. Smilinga bit I keep it on the basin as Josh sets the temperature of the shower my legs barely having any energy after everything. "Let me,"Josh helps me out of my clothes as I stand under the shower naked letting the heat of the water drain away my sorrow along with the dirt. I relax feeling Josh's arms around my waist from behind as he kisses my cheek. "Thank you,"he says as the water cascades over us both,his touch distracting my mind as he washes every inche od my body delicately.

Josh wrpas the towel over me as I stare at him,taking in his wet body,eyes travelling lower and lower only o see the white towel around his hips. Chucking he puts his rings and bracelet on me as we walk out with changing,which I do for myself.

The first man I ever loved went after all those years together,every laughter and smile he painted onto my face,the effort in gromming me all of it gone just like hat.A car crash,you'd think he'd survive form it.I know I can just blame Josh for it but then the accident wsn't him,it was my dad.I couldn't even blame myself.He didn't deserve this,any of it.He was a amazing man and father.he deserved to live to see his grandchildren,my marriage or even my graduation,but there was none of it.He was gone just like that away from Mr. into an unknown place.Tomorrow,the funeral.How close one even plan one when they are griefing and mourning?I needed more time to process and accept it,a lot of time.How people survivr eath is unbeleivbel coz it take great strength to first accept death.Moving on is another whole thing.

Roaming around in a garden holding my dad's hand wondering why I couldn't belucky to have my mom here.She wss at work but hen I remember she was gone from my life.I didn't have a mom or dad any more in my life,my head throb with my heart feeling heavy and dense.

My thoughts get interrupted with the tingling sensation on my face by Josh.He asked me something I had no clue but I do know that his touch is good enough to make me forget.I push my lips to Josh catching his by surprise as he kisses me back slow and hesistanly but that's not what I want.I quicken the pace proding my tongue on his lower lip but he doesn't let me in.Raking my nail down this absd be gasp as my fingers travel up his thighs.His hand on my waist and the other behind my neck making everything else blur out than him. My tongue finding it's way into his mouth after he gasped.My lust overriding for his feel all over me as I rech for his button fumbling with it when he gently pushes me back.

"What are you doing?"he asks looking into my eyes.

"I want to forget it all,make me forget it all but you,"I tell him the need an urge for it to be him and not my thogths overriding me.

"Iz it's not going to help  you forget,it will only distract you for few mintues and that's it.Aftet heat your life goes on;the came struggles and challenges.It's only a distraction and nothing  else but if you want to only this once,"his lips meet mine as his hands reach for the t-shirt but I stop him before anything can happen and he raises his eyebrow at me.

"You were right,I need to deal with my issies head strong,"I smile glad to have a boyfriend like him.

"You want to sleep?",he asks as I shakes my head no knowing I won't get sleep anytime soon with my mind annoying me. Josh chuckles at my actions tapping my nose making me smile. "Wanna tell me about the man who raised a woman like you-nope, the woman that is you,"he smiles tucking back my lock as I roll my eyes.

I lay on this chest hugging him side ways with his arms around my waist holding me close like he knows that if he disaapears I'll be lost forever. "Whenever I had to go shopping dad would go with Dewayne's mom since he was not really any good with the female stuff but he did pretty well.Sometimes Dwayne would tag along keeping me company. We'd run away from them and hide in the rack,imintating them as we danced to the music.Dad was good at hide and sneak and would always find us so quick.We'd made it a challenge............Even things like menstruation,he's telling me about it taking my mom's place learning the knowledge.He never wanted me to feel like a lacked a mother in my life and surprisingly I never felt it.He's veen my everything.................We'd go golfing as a family and lter dad and I went.I remember challenging him on my thirteeth birthday and I actually beat him.He lifted me,spinning me away,getting a crown and making me feel like a princess.....................................

That's how I had spent my time talking and remicsing to Josh about ym life with my dad and somwwhere between it all when I reached seventeen I think I dosed off,too exhausted to move one it.

In the middle of the night,I feel a kiss on my shoulder as a comforter drags till my chin butI know the real warthm comes from the now most important male in my life.

"I love you,"I turn around snuggling into him for warthm as he holds me close kissing the tpo of my head. Sweet dreams to you Isabella,I tell myself remembering about my dad tugging me to sleep with a same type of kiss on my head