Inevitable Turns

29.The things you'd do for love

[A/N]:This chapter has self harm.If you aren't comfortable with it,pls do not proceed.

Joshua's P.O.V

Two days after the meeting with Maddie and Mr. Rivera Zach was arrested and then charged at the highest dergee by Mr. Rivera.Turns out he hates violation and rape to a high extent.Iz was taken into question and as for us.Things haven't been any good.We both aren't on talking terms and I've moved into Aiden's room to give her space and some time to get over the entire issue.How much will it take for her to understand why I did what I did,I wonder as I doodle in my book.

It's next Tuesday from the dreadful day she stopped talking to me.I look at her from the side of my eye as she sketches some designs.She got a fashion show next Saturday and is quite busy working on it.Ty's busy blabbering about something as I look at Cass who is busy ogling at her finace.I'm so happy for those two crazy dorks, but me I'm broken here while she is so close yet I can't do anything.I can't talk nor feel her,nothing.That's how are life is become,it's like we've broken up even though we haven't and that's what hurts is the probability of that happening.The first few days I tried talking to her but then she completely shut me out and that was the worst possible thing coz she's the only one who can break my heart.

Classes have been dreaded hours where I'm either busy on my phone or doodle or just lost in the thoughts of her. While work is reading files and continuous work for the project.Somehow both Mr. Rivera and Mr. Johnosn have managed to keep me so busy that I don't have to even think about Iz or us.The only thing that still keeps me breathing is the fact that she hasn't ended things nor has she stopped wearing my bracelet or ring giving me some hope that after some time everything will be fixed because I know if that bracelet isn't on her hand that means I'm lost to her and that's not something I can live with.Without her their isn't any purpose of me living other than my family.

"Can I have everyone's attention.Especially you in front of Miss Evans,"he says as I roll my eyes controlling my urge of flipping him off.They both have been annoying us all week about their wedding and why we aren't talking but my lips are sealed so they gave up knowing they won't get anything unless I give it out.Ty explains about the project and then looks at we evilly making me wonder what the hell is he up to and when his eyes move to her I glare at him already knowing what he's doing.

"And I hope you love your partners coz you're paired with them,"he smirks as I hold the bridge of my nose turning to look at her.Our eyes meet and just as do she looks away making me sigh.Guess this is going to take more time then I thought possible.

"Cass,"Iz says turning to her with pleading eyes as Cass glares at me and then shakes her head.

"Prof can I partner up with Miss Meyers?"she chuckles as I roll my eyes but then it hits me.She really wants to stay as far away from me as she can.How bad could I have hurt her when I saved her from everything and many other woman.Somehow I just couldn't get Iz.Why couldn't she just work with me for a project.We've been pretty diplomatic at times why can't she do that.Is it so horrible that she can't try and even speak with me without breaking down or something.And that as the second time.I never saw her cry after that it's like the entire did nothing to her at all and that pained me because it wasn't nothing yet she acted that way.But now whenever I do look in her eyes it's filled with pain and hurt and so are mine.I guess we both broke each other and aren't ready to heal and so we're here out on our own, wrecking each other more by every single second.

"And what's your excuse Miss Evan?"he smiles like a love sick human.Honestly, finally getting married is really getting into his head.He went on talking about it the last time I met him,about her being his wife and them having the kid and having a family of his own.I'm really happy for them but I know Ty is a bit scared of being a dad.He's literally been reading parenting book which made me die laughing.