Three Whole Words Only Eight Letters Long (Sequel to LCDD)

Chapter 4

Adrian's POV

"It's okay Liz" I whispered into her hair as I held her shaking body to my own, hoping to comfort her just by being here. Hopefully I was, but she hadn't stopped crying yet. I tightened my arms around her frame as she wound her arms around my waist and squeezed, turning her face into my chest and her tears quickly soaked through.

     I had no idea what had happened between her and Josh to make her cry this badly, and I was going to find out before pummelling his face. I hated him. He hurt her every time he was around her and I wanted nothing more than to hurt him for her. Lizzie was my best friend as well as my flatmate and I would do anything to make sure that she was happy, although this might have something to do with the fact that I had very confused feelings for her.

"It hurts Adrian" she sobbed and I breathed in deeply through my nose to calm my anger and I buried my face in her hair, breathing in her lemon scented shampoo which I loved the smell of before kissing her hair.

"I know it does Liz. But I'm here for you" I sighed and she nodded, sucking in a deep breath and I heard her sobs quieten but her body still shook.

     She pulled back and looked into my eyes, letting me see how puffy and red her hazel ones were and I felt my eyes tear up, when it felt as though I could feel her pain. She smiled at me I placed my hand on the side of her face before brushing her tears away. She closed her eyes and leaned into my hand and I watched as her breathing calmed and her body quit shaking. This made me smile because she was returning to normal. I pressed my lips to her forehead to find that her skin was flushed and I frowned at this but smiled when I heard her make a noise in the back of her throat.

     I pulled back to see that she was biting her lip and I smiled at her. She returned my smile with a sweet one of her own and I felt my skin warm under her gaze. It was amazing the effect she had on me. Every little thing she did, I was aware of, as though my body was tuned to the same frequency as hers. It was kind of scary how much her proximity affected me and how well I understood what she was feeling. I wanted nothing more than to protect her from the world, and to keep her for myself by doing so but I knew that would never happen. Her heart still belonged to Josh, even though the asshole had no clue. My hands clenched at the thought of him and I saw that Lizzie noticed my hands before she frowned at me.

"Adrian?" she questioned quietly and I blinked, before focusing on her eyes to see that she looked confused. Well that made two of us, I didn't know why I wanted her this badly. Well I did, sort of. God, I was so confused about everything!

     I wanted her to be mine. I wanted Lizzie to be my girlfriend so that I could just say she was mine and be able to hold her and kiss her whenever I liked. But there was also a part of me that felt like a protective brother, and this was what confused me. I liked her, more than a friend and had done for a while now. I'd started developing feelings for her the week we went to Leeds festival, but I also couldn't help the protective feeling that reared its head whenever she looked hurt, especially when it was to do with Fran-bum-hole. Seriously what kind of name was that anyway? The fans were morons for calling him Fransexy. I'd actually heard Marie refer to him as this, of course Josh was nowhere near when she said this but it was fucking ridiculous! Okay so yeah, I was jealous.

     Here Lizzie was crying into my arms because Josh couldn't keep it in his pants and it was so fucking obvious how much she wanted him. It was obvious to each and every one of us- I knew this because I got on well with his bandmates as well as Summer and all of them agreed how obvious it was that Lizzie wanted Josh back- it was even obvious to Lisa. I saw how jealous she looked whenever Lizzie and Josh were joking around and how she always smirked whenever Josh showed her affection and not Lizzie. I also saw how this pained my friend, that he'd chosen that bitch over her. I personally believed that Lizzie could do way better. She was beautiful and had a heart of gold, any guy who wasn't a total idiot could see that- except Josh of course.

     It was also so annoying how jealous I was of Josh. He couldn't see it in her eyes how much she longed for him, couldn't see how much it affected her when they were sitting next to each other at the shop, and I'd also noticed how Lizzie had to scrunch her hands into fists to keep from launching herself at him. All of this was obvious to me, yet he was too blind to see the amazing woman right in front of him and it pissed me off. I wanted her to be mine, because I would never let her go like he had. I would treasure her each and every day and make sure she knew how special she was to me. I wanted her to care about me like she did Josh. I wanted her to hug and kiss me like there was no tomorrow, because I would always do that with her. But this was just an if. I knew my dreams were just that, dreams. She had no clue how I felt because I didn't want to tell her and risk our friendship. I cared about her, and was still able to look after her, even if it was just as friends. I would always do right by her.

     I sighed and combed a hand through my hair before focusing on her face. She looked a little surprised and I swallowed. Shit what had she seen on my face? She leaned forwards and kissed my cheek which made my heart go into overdrive and my hands to snake around her waist. I felt her smile before she trailed her lips up to my temple and I groaned, which made her smirk against my skin. Fuck I needed to hold her and kiss her so badly right now!

     She pulled away and looked into my eyes before laughing lightly and I felt myself blush before I sighed and looked away from her as I reluctantly let her go.

"Are you okay now?" I asked, focusing on her black bedspread so that I could avoid her eyes. I couldn't control what I did whenever I looked into her eyes. She sighed and I instantly looked at her as she pulled away and lay on her back. I frowned at her before shuffling so that I was lying on my side, my head propped up so that I could look down at her. She gathered my hand in both of hers and played with my fingers while I watched her as she was deep in thought.

     I smiled down at her as she looked up at her ceiling and I watched as she nibbled on her bottom lip, the action had me watching her and I had to swallow the groan that threatened to escape and tense my muscles to keep myself from wrapping my arms around her and never letting go.

     After a few seconds she sighed heavily and turned to look at me, before a tiny smile covered her lips. I recognised this as the smile that she tried to put on to persuade people that she was okay, but for some reason Lizzie knew she couldn't fool me, so her smile had failed at the last second. She shrugged.

"Not really. I'm an idiot and I know it, but I can't help it" she sighed and I smiled at her as she rolled onto her side. I lowered myself down and placed an arm underneath her head, while the other went around her waist and she curled into my chest.

"You're not an idiot Lizzie. He's the idiot for not realising how special you are. You're only human, you can't help what you feel" I sighed, wishing she could help what she felt so that I could show her how much she meant to me, but I didn't want to scare her off.

     She lifted her head to nuzzle the hollow of my neck and my breath caught in my throat which made her laugh, before I stopped breathing altogether when she kissed the skin there.

"Thank you Adrian. I don't know what I'd do without you" she sighed and I buried my face in her hair as I smiled.

"Probably crash and burn" I replied and she snorted but stayed silent.