An Alpha's Love

Chapter Twenty : Be Brave

Felix's POV :

I let out a groan as I stretch, reaching across the soft sheets to find the other side of the bed empty. A sigh escapes me and I open my eyes. It's nothing I hadn't grown used to over the last few days. I'd always fall asleep waiting for Isaac to get back from his Alpha duties and I'd wake up to him carrying me to his bed. We never did anything except cuddle. I expected him to make a move but he never did and I couldn't tell if I was disappointed of relieved. I had no idea how I'd react if he tried taking it further than maybe a simple kiss. We hadn't even done that though. Isaac would put my on the bed and tuck me under the blankets before climbing in next to me. He would always wish me sweet dreams and kiss my head. It was nice, but that's it. I kind of wanted him to do more. With Isaac I wanted more. I just didn't know how to ask for it.

It was nice sleeping next to Isaac though. His bed was the most comfortable thing I had ever slept on. Having Isaac there was a bonus. I always woke up well rested and my sleep was nightmare free. It was nice, but in the morning it was lonely. I understood though. Running his pack and his businesses was a demanding and stressful job. I got too used to him being with me all of the time and now we were trying to find a balance between our responsibilities and making time for each other. To be fair though I felt like I was always waiting on him because there isn't much I can do being stuck in the suite all day.

My days consisted of driving the boys to and from school every other day and cleaning up after them in the evenings after school. I didn't have an actual job within or outside of the pack even though I was supposedly their Luna. I honestly felt utterly useless most of the time. I tried talking with Cassie about it but it didn't help. She told me to talk with Isaac about how I was feeling but I didn't know how. Every time we were together all of those feelings and insecurities flew out the window and I just felt safe and loved. I just couldn't help but feel like I need to spend more time with him though. How are we supposed to get closer as mates if the most we do with each other is cuddle and sleep?

"Ugh, this is getting me no where!" I groan, pushing my self up into a sitting position and swinging my legs over the edge of the bed.

I quickly stand up and march my way over to the dresser to find some clothes for the day. I settle on a light blue sweater and some black skinny jeans before heading to the bathroom. I strip Isaac's shirt over my head and push my boxes down my legs. I glance in the mirror and instantly regret it. The bruises and cuts that had littered my body when I first came to this town had faded and healed. All that was left behind were the long and sometimes jagged scars. I look away, not wanting to see them anymore and head for the shower.

I push the buttons, making it so that the water flows from the overhead rainfall head at the hottest possible temperature. I give it a second to heat up before stepping into the spray and I sigh, relieved to feel the heat of the water wash everything away. I grab Isaac body wash and flick it open then apply some to a loofa before putting the soap back where I found it. This is my favorite part of showering because the soap smells just like Isaac. His earthy, woodsy scent washes over me as I scrub my body.

Once I'm sure I'm completely clean I rinse the loofa and hang it to dry before stepping out of the shower onto the bathroom matt. I grab a fluffy towel from the towel warmer and wrap it around my body then grab another for my hair and head for the counter. I make quick work of drying my hair so its only a little damp then I comb it into submission. I pull the towel form around my body and dry off the rest of the way.

I ignore my reflection in the mirror and take a deep breath before blowing it out slowly to calm my mind. I grab my clothes and slip them on before quickly leaving the bathroom. I have no idea why I was in such a hurry. I just felt like I needed to do something. It was Cassie's turn to drive the boys so I didn't even have that to do today so I made the decision to deep clean the suite, starting with the bedroom.