Beautiful Monster

57

Isabelle's Pov

I huffed and threw the pen down.

"What is the matter" Abrin said while walking over to me. I looked up.

"I can't figure out what I want the main colors to be" I said. I looked down again. I don't even know Mattia's favorite color.

"Mattia likes black, just so you know" She said. I smiled and leaned back. Maybe the planning should take a pause. I need time to think and understand what is actually going on between me and Mattia.

"Are you talking to yourself" I heard. I turned around and saw Mattia. I slowly nodded.

"I didn't realize. I'm sorry" I said. He laughed while shaking his head.

"No need to apologize"

"Why are you so dressed up. It's saturday"

"What's that supposed to mean. I have meetings"

"Mattia it's saturday , you are not leaving"

"I am. I have important business to take care of."

"You can tell Alejandro to do it. I need you to stay home today"

I heard a chuckle. I felt my heart flutter.

"You want me home or need me home" Mattia asked while running his hands along my neck. I shivered inside.

"I want you home" I said. He bent over the couch and kissed me. I turned around and pulled his suit jacket. He smiled into the kiss.

He pulled away and walked around. He sat on the couch and picked me up. He immediately decided to attach our lips. I smiled into the kiss. He placed me on his lap and I felt something hard.

"Mattia, what is that" I asked.

"My gun" He smirked. I went in to kiss him again. I got turned on when he said it was his gun, not only did he keep it on him but it wasn't small. It made him ten times hotter.

"Mattia" I whisper moaned. He chuckled and pushed me up.

"I have to go to work. I will see you tonight"

"No you won't. You can sleep in your room alone"

"What are you talking about" He asked rubbing his face.

"Since you want to leave me here, you can sleep alone" I said. He smirked while walking up to me.

"Who are you talking to" He said through gritted teeth.

"You"

He gripped my face. I guess he didn't like that.

"I want you in our bed and ready for me when I get home. Do you understand your instructions" He said.

"Yes" I said.

"Yes what"

"Yes sir" I said. He let go of my face and walked out the door. I huffed.

That's my husband.

"Can I talk to you" I heard. I turned around. Camille was standing behind me with one of Mattia's cups. She was wrapped in a blanket with bags under her eyes. I sighed.

"Of course" I said. I got up and walked to the dining room.

"I want you to understand what I am going through and how it effects you" She said. I could smell the alcohol.

"Why the hell are you drinking"

"You need to listen to me"

"Fine"

"Listen. I know that I have not been feeling well for sometime. Close to a year I guess. I thought the organization of Mattia's operations would fill the void but it didn't. For some time Alejandro did. He made me feel happy, whole, all the way here but once Noah came in the picture it all changed"

"What happened" I asked cutting her off.

"Noah didn't want me around Alejandro anymore. He thought that Ale had a pervert uncle type hold over me which was beyond the truth. So it led to me fighting with Alejandro and Noah at the same time but I had to realize that Noah was a disposable and Ale was permanently a part of my life" She said wiping away the little tears off her face.

"I found out that Noah was cheating on my when we started fighting so he broke up with me. It hurt because he was the one person I felt myself around. I told Alejandro a different story so he wouldn't kill Noah and I still got a lecture."

"So what happened after"

"I have been feeling completely broken. Sleeping with random guys is the only way I feel wanted anymore. Drinking takes me out of the moment. Isabelle, I don't want to be here anymore" She said drinking all of what was in the glass.

"You're drunk. You don't mean that"

"Isabelle I everything I had just isn't there anymore. The hope I had in Lorenzo-"

"That is your father"

"He is your father. The bond we had since you are so caught up in Mattia. The mafia since Alejandro says I'm a liability. I just don't have anything. I feel like I don't belong and that there is no fixing it"

"I am so sorry Camille. I know that I have been focused on myself. I wish I paid more attention to you but I was just so distracted"

"I am not asking for your pity. I just want you to know. I know I am not ok, I know it's not just because I'm crazy but I'm hurt. There is a lot going on in my head and I will push you away. I will mess with your head and heart but I don't mean it. I am not doing it to hurt you, I am trying not to hurt myself." She got up and walked away. I just don't understand. She seemed so happy.

Later that night.

"Olivia, I want to change some things for her party" I said.

"You understand that will be hard hence her birthday is tomorrow."

"I know but I have to. We have to cancel the full Balotelli invite. We can only invite Ivana, Avani, and Jaden. Those are the only ones she can tolerate. We need to cool it on the lights and we have to calm the mood down" I said.

"So you are telling me that you want me to change all my decorations"

"Yes. She is going through things and she doesn't need the really flashy energy. I think a calm party is the best way to go"

"Whatever you say Isabelle. You know her best"

"No. I don't know her at all"

"I will call you tomorrow, Kairi just got home"

"Of course" I said. We hung up the phone. That means that Mattia and Alejandro will be here soon.

Alejandro only comes to check on Cami and have their nightly talks. Sometimes she doesn't want to talk at all.

I heard the front door slam.

When Mattia walked into the room he harshly took off his suit jacket. He kicked off his shoes and then went into the bathroom. I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom door.

The shower turned on. I opened the door.

"Hey" I said. He continued to wash. I rolled my eyes and opened the shower door.

"Mattia Polibio. You will speak to me when you walk in this house"

"Hello Tesoro. I am not in the mood right now"

"Fine" I said. I walked into the room and laid down. I pulled the blankets over myself and got ready for bed.