Kahit Kunwari

26

"Are you sure? Ikaw lang mag-isa, malamang iiyak ka lang doon." Si Ally habang magkausap kami sa Skype.

Who knows? I know I am not healed yet, it's hard moving forward without forgiving yourself. I don't know if I already deserve it.

"I'm good Ally. Umuwi ka na kasi. You can just visit your firm there, dapat kasi dito na lang sa Pinas!" Tampo kong sagot sa kanya.

I saw her paused for a while. Reconsider, Ally. It's been so long since she went to France. I miss her so bad. Maging si Kyrsten ay palaging nasa labas ng bansa. They're always busy.

"Ah basta. Kapag may problema, just call me. Naiintindihan mo?" Parang naman 'tong nanay magsalita. Natawa ako.

After everything that happened to me, they became more protective. It's true that I'm the most sensitive among us three. But no matter how hard the situations are, I know I need to keep on moving forward. Everyday is a new day, new life.

"Please?" Segundo niya nang hindi ako makasagot agad. She's so problematic. Kapag ganito siya, mas lalo ko lang siyang namimiss. It's already weekend. Pagkagaling ko mamaya sa concert, I'll go home, kila Mama. Medyo malayo kasi ang firm na pinapasukan ko sa bahay namin.

I cleared my schedule for this. I've been one of the most diligent and effective accountant in our firm, so it's not really impossible to have leave when I want.

Wearing my chiffon cropped top blouse and straight leg jeans, I tied my hair into half ponytail leaving some strands of my hair so it won't be that too neat. I just brought my chained crossed body bag. I don't really need to wear make up, madilim naman sa concert hall, it's useless. But I bought some of my on the go make ups, so I will just put some if needed.

Pagkarating ko sa venue ay inilabas ko na ang ticket ko. Nagpapapasok na pala. But it's early pa naman. I can hear a loud music inside. Isn't it too sad to go on a concert alone?

I sat on the assigned seat for me. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang kaba ko nang makita ko kung sino ang lalaki sa ibaba ko. Nakaupo siya at diretsong nakatingin sa stage na wala pa namang nagtatanghal. Ethan Jayce, I....miss him.

"Baby! I'm sorry for keeping you waiting, ang haba ng pila sa rest room, eh." A petite chinita girl said.

God! Is she the one Ally was talking about?

"It's fine. Aren't you hungry? I told you, we should've eat first before coming here." Ej said. Uhm, am I still allowed to call him Ej? Yeah sure, sa thoughts ko lang naman.

He held the girl close to him, hands on her waist. Then he kissed her on her forehead. That was my favorite move of him. God! I want to forget just for tonight, pero bakit ganito? Fuck!

"Uhm, ayoko ma-late tayo dito eh! Mamaya nalang? Maybe we can just grab something before going home? Drive thru nalang." She looks so fine. Wearing a boyfriend jeans with a big black belt and a tight sleeveless top. Her long straight hair effortlessly falls. Ano kayang shampoo niya?

I was shocked when the girl looked at me. Maybe she saw me in her peripheral vision looking and admiring her? I don't know.

Six years na. Ang tagal na rin pala. He looked at me for how many seconds. Agad niya rin na tinaggal ang nga titig na iyon nang magsalita ang babaeng katabi niya. She can easily get his attention.