Kahit Kunwari

40

Author's Note: This is not the last chapter. We still have 'Wakas'.

As I closed my eyes, I raised my hand. I don't understand a thing of what's happening right now, but I know God will let me. We're in the church. I inhaled and exhaled before praying.

"God, first I want to thank You. Thank You for this challenges and for the bravest woman I know beside me. She's so precious, Lord. I can't see her like this anymore. You know we've been so lost and wounded for years."

I remember everything where this all started. Sino bang mag-aakala na kaya ko palang gawin lahat para sa isang babae? I didn't have any commitment with someone before. But she....she made me fall real hard without even trying.

"I know that everything that's been happening has its purpose, but God.....can you make her pain stop? Can I have it instead? I can't breathe knowing that she's too wrecked inside. Heal her, heal Graenielle and bring back the old and happy her. I don't care if we'll not end up together, but I just want her pain to stop. Her eyes,God they are so beautiful. I will never get tired of wiping her tears away, but her eyes are so tired of crying."

I wasn't crying outside but my heart is weeping inside. Damn, everything hurts. Countless times I was pushed away, how many times I asked why can't she love me back? Why does it have to be this hard? Why can't we both be just happy together and move forward?

"You let us meet again. I was begging for a sign and then you showed her to me again. The heart of the woman I love is the heart I will forever want to protect. I want to protect her, use me as your instrument Lord. Use me, and let her be happy again with or without me." I bit my lip as I said those.

It's like as if my heart is slowly reaching for her. God is telling me that I need to be with her. Sure she is brave, but I can be her strength as well.

"Hindi ako madalas humingi ng kahit ano sa Inyo. You know that. Ito lang po, please heal, heal the love of my life. Heal the only girl I loved for years. And I promise to give everything to You."

After the service I was shocked when she hugged me from the back.

Humarap ako sa kanya. Her eyes are swollen. But, she's still the most beautiful woman in my eyes.

"Let's get healed together."

It wasn't easy. After that day, I became more protective of her. I gave everything I can to support her recovery on the way. We both trusted the process. Slowly, I am seeing her eyes that reflects happiness. Finally, I know she's not that healed yet, but I am so happy, so happy because I loved the right woman. A woman who knows how to stand up on her own, a woman who doesn't give up on life despite of all the rocks thrown to her.

"Son, you're now at the right age, when do you plan to finally settle down?" I visited my parents in Canada. They're here because Dad actually brought a house here and they're already citizens here.

Few years ago, gusto din ni Dad na dito na ako magsettle. He thinks that maybe I can finally meet someone here. That's too impossible, nasa Pilipinas ang babaeng gusto kong pakasalan.

"She said yes, Dad." Ako at nangingiting tumingin sa mga magulang ko. My Mom's eyes widened and stood up. She went near me. My Dad on the other hand is smiling from ear to ear.

"You mean Graenielle? The Graenielle whom you're still in love after all these years?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Mom sa akin. I paused. Fvck. Mali ba ako ng pagkakasabi? Do they think that.....