Muse (ChanBaek)

29th Musing

Everything is back to the usual...
Me, my lonely house, my craps that I'm making, these bottles of alcohols

I wake up today too with finding myself on couch... So, this is loneliness ... huh

I don't even know when was the last meal I ate.
I feel like throwing up now.

"Hyung? Awake?"

Ah... right. Everything back to usual include.... Sehun too.

He's back to my house as Usual. Staying as how he was.. and how he always is

"Are you feeling well? Should I buy you some food?" He says as his hand reaches to my face but... I slap his hand off

"Go back" I say and go into my room

Chanyeol might... hate me now
After leaving alone and ignoring all this texts.

My team says he's doing well, and currently in Spain for shooting K-drama.
That's nice of him and how he works hard.

"Hyung.." it's Sehun again.

I can't really like ... go back to how things were yet.
And I don't really want to talk with Him too.

"Get up hyung. Seems like you must eat something" he says "Hyung? Hyung.. come"

"Can't you just! *sigh* leave me alone?"

"Hyung. Get yourself together and accept that it's me who's beside you"

"Sehun ya... I have no energy to argue. Just go and do what you have to"

"I don't have currently"

"Then I will ask management team to give you some projects"

"Hyung!"

"Go"

"Do you like him? That much?"

"Sehun... stop"

Aish... I feel dizzy and... about to throw up.

"Answer me hyung... do you..."

"Awwhhhhhh!!" I close my mouth and run into toilet

"Hyung!!" Sehun comes and pat my back "are you okay? Let's go to hospital..."

"No.... Awhhhhhh"

This feels... horrible
My stomach hurts too.

.........................................

Just like that I got to hospital
Now that situation is worse
I can't even work now
For some reason, I want to see him
Sehun is beside me but the place inside me is yearning for .... his presence

"I let your grandma know and she said she will come tomorrow since she's in Busan" Sehun says

"Why did you tell her? She doesn't need to."

"But .."

"And you don't need to stay here too"

"Take a rest. I'll be here" he says

He's.... still in Spain?
I want to see him.

And .... Sehun's parents come and see me

"Baekhyun ya.. how are you feeling now? Have you check with Hospital Head doctor?" Sehun's father says

"Ah.... I think I did"

"He did, father" Sehun says

"Why do you so thin? Do you want anything you want to eat? Should I cook for you? Grandma is so worried about you" Sehun's mother says