Muse (ChanBaek)

Musing S2 - 12

What have I done?
What the fuck happened really?
I wasn't even drunk and why did I .... tortured sunbae?
Oh my fucking god

It would be bad if I go back now right?

"You are not planning to go back right?" Kyungsoo comes out of his room

"Ah... no...... sunbae"

"If you are planning to say sorry.. don't"

"But... I'm really sorry"

"Boya.. that makes me feel worse" he says

I give him a cup of water ...

"Were you drunk with anger?" He asks

"Was it obvious?"

"Haha.... it was clear written on your face"

"Sunbae "

"If this wasn't intentional.... let's do properly next time... next time... I hope you will do with affection and not anger"

"Imm... I'm sorry"

"Haha.. stop making that face and..."

I pull and hug him....

"Kyungsoo ya... I'm going to love you. Please... let me love you."

"Eh.... chanyeol ya... we agreed not to like...emotionally attach to each other. I mean.. it's okay. You don't need to feel this bad for what you did... haha.. we are both men. I understand you"

"No... let me... let me love you"

"Ch..."

"Let me fall for you"

Let me just.. I want to start new again...
I am also... suffocating to suffer from this.... this past.

Sunbae is a very good guy.
I can fall in love with him.

And... I need to come clean with .... B ... right?

.....................................

After coming back from kyungsoo sunbae's place... I called Sehun to meet up.

And...sunbae said he will think about it.
Since he never really plans to get into relationship. And... that his intentions were purely just wanting to help me. And that...

He... really likes me as his hoobae.
But... I want to take another step closer to him. Treat him better and take care of him.

I need to make up my mind.. it's true that... a lot of time had passed by.
Clinging on the past won't be helped. Either.. no.. for all of us.

Sehun is a very reliable guy... I believe him. That he will be with B.

"Aww.. did you wait long?" Sehun says as he finally arrives at the cafe

"No... I just.. arrived a few minutes ago"

"Imm... what's it you want to say?"

"Sehun ya... I... I'm moving on. I really decided to move on"

"....... that's... great. That really helps for ...all of us right?"

"Imm. That's what I thought."

"Good luck chanyeol ya. When your mind and heart are okay... we can be like usual again"

"Help me for one last time Sehun ya"

"Help... you... what?"

"For one last time... please let me meet him."

"Chanyeol ya.."