Muse (ChanBaek)

Musing S2 - 21

'No matter what.... don't feel guilty.'

This is... what he meant?
This is why.... he doesn't want me to feel guilty?
These pushing away and making me hurt.....

You are..... you are suffering from this pain...
Me.... what was I even doing?
I am here trying to love ... trying to move on...

"Park chanyeol?" Daniel calls me....

I get out of my car and... my legs give up...
I can't care about anything anymore but... cry sitting on the ground

Like a helpless kid.
It's not late but.... it's still late.

He has been suffering and.... I feel so .... so stupid.

I... I'm the worst.

"Park chanyeol... he needs you. Please save him" Daniel come out of car and leaves me alone

This is just so painful.... more than when he left me 2 years ago.

No.. I can't be crying like this... I have to go to him.. I have to stay with him

I quickly rush into the hospital, my legs are wobbling

Where is he... where is he?!!!

"Where is emergency operation room?" I ask one of the nurse

"Go straight and Turn Left please"

Don't feel guilty?
Byun baekhyun!

You fucking making a wreck of me. All the guilt are on me.

And .... you asked for the promise ?
Hate me. I'm breaking that promise.

As I walk towards the operation room... I see Sehun waiting in front of him

I run towards him and grab him by his shirt

"What the fuck are you doing?what do you think you are doing!" I shout

"Fucking Daniel... how untrustworthy" Sehun says

"You said you would protect him.. you said ... you promised..."

"I'm doing that. Fuck off"

"Doing what!! Doing exactly what? I knew you are not making him happy. He has been sad.. he has been empty... you... oh Sehun You!!"

"Low down your voice. This is hospital"

"Fuck!" I punch him and he falls onto the floor "you.... you didn't care him..... he was lonely.. I should have known... I should have known from the time I knew he is going to Daniel"

"So... what could you have done better? What can you do then?"

"......"

"What the fuck can you do, Park Chanyeol!"

"At least, he won't be giving up"

"Really? You are the one who showed him that you are moving on with that actor Do kyungsoo. It is you that hurts him"

"Oh Sehun!"

"Will you two Low down your voice?" A voice appears...

"Director nim" Sehun says

It's B's grandmom

"How are you?" She asks me

"I'm... park chanyeol.. it's nice to see...."

"Shall we go and talk somewhere?" She asks

"Nae"

"Sehun ya, wait him until he comes out and send him directly to VIP room afterwards"

"Nae, I will"
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We are sitting in the hospital cafe... similar scene.
Just like the day he left me. I wonder what will his grandma going to say now. Don't tell me... she is going to ask me to leave him ?

"So, you are the one that, my hyunnie used to like. Or should I say...you are the one who he run in the rain to meet?"

"I'm ... sorry"

"Why are you sorry? Did you ask him to run in the rain?"

"No.."

"Then.. why? You know what makes you different from Sehun?"

"..........."

"You are weak in heart. You are not greedy. And those drew you far from my Hyunnie"

"Let me stay beside him. I can take care of him... he can feel less lonely."

"So less lonely will make my Hyunnie... gets better?"

"It's one of the ways."

"I don't care whoever Hyunnie loves and ends up. What I care most is, him to get better. And... him to be loved"

"Nae."

"Rather it's Sehun or... someone else... it's up to Hyunnie's choice. Do you understand?"

"Nae"

"Hurt him and... I will drag you down from your career"

"Hurting ? that's what I will never do"

"We will see. If you are all the talk or.... you really work"

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32 missed calls
43 messages

I forget to tell kyungsoo.
He must be... worried dead

What should I say?

"You really should care your boyfriend... first"

"Oh Sehun"

"You think Hyung would let you stay beside you? Don't fool yourself"

"He knows who he needs most. He knows that is not you either and I will make him want to live again. I will comfort him that his life is worth more than anything."

"Do you actually think Hyung... Byun baekhyun would listen to you?"

"I will. And I am confidence."

"With that boyfriend you are having right now. He will never allow you to come to his side."

*phone ring*

Caller ID - Kyungsoo Sunbae

"Huh.... why don't you just make love with your boyfriend?" Sehun says and he goes into the room

I must .... tell sunbae soon...
But with what courage?

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