Meeting half way

Chapter: ex and zombies

Finn
•••A hour before Gwen comes over••
I've just had one of the longest weeks in my life.
I had an awful pain in my chest, and on top of that, the thought that Gwen is in more pain than me made me feel worse.
But I'm finally admitting it,
I'm deadly and fully in love with her, Gwendolyn Greene.
I missed her so much it's giving me heart pains, that no matter how many advils I take the pain stays just as vibrate.
All I want to do was wrap my arms around her fragile body and breath in her sweet Vanilla scent.
Man, I've got it bad.
And even though I know all I had to do was tell my mom to let her in or stop avoiding her at school. I didn't, because I knew if I saw her it would make every thing that much harder.
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"Kiss my ass, you fucking zombie fucker!"
I laugh.
This has been my after school plans for the last two weeks. Playing video games, taking close to overdoses of Advil, and wallowing around my house. And most of all missing Gwen like crazy.
"Finn, you have a visitor!" My mom yells from the front room.
"Mom, I can't! I told you I'm not ready to see her yet!" I yell, so she can hear me from the other room.
"It's not Gwen!"
I wince at the sound of her name. I sigh, hoping it wasn't one of my friends inviting me to some stupid party.
I slowly get up from much couch and drag myself into the living room.
As I enter the room, I see a head of strawberry blonde hair and bright blue eyes. I automatically know who the pretty teenager sitting across the room smiling at me was.
It's Amanda, my ex.
My throat gets dry and I can feel my jaw clench.
"Finn" Amanda breaths, moving towards me in a swift movement clasping my torso into a tight hug. Placing her soft warm hand at the back my neck. I Breath in her scent, searching for sweet vanilla, but only breathing in a sharp shot of strong perfume.
I cough at the excessive amount, and she laughs.
"Is my baby sick," she says resting her delicate hand on my scruffy unshaved jaw.
I scowl at the sound of "my baby".
" 'my baby' seriously? Last time I checked, you cheated on my with my best friend and then dumped me. So no, I'm not 'your baby'" I say pushing her hand away and stepping away from her.
She sends me a sad look,
"Come on Finn, I've apologized. I thought that was behind us now. You told me before you left that it's behind us, right?" She says, reaching towards me and placing her hand on my forearm.
I don't move it. I just look ahead, avoiding her eyes.
"Finn look at me," she says, placing her other hand on my chin and moving it so I'm forced to stare into her beautiful blue eyes. I loved those eyes, not anymore.
I shake her off me and take another step back.
"Why are you here?" I say, moving my fists into tight balls.
She chuckles and that makes me relax a little.
"I just wanna talk? Can we do that, talk?"
I nod and I sit down on the couch and so does she.
"So, what could you possibly want to talk about?"
"Well first, about how munched I miss seeing you in sweat pants," she giggles.
I scoff.
"But I really want to talk about you and me. I really miss you Finn and i can't explain how much I screwed up with you,"
She sighs, " you were the best boyfriend I ever had, and I don't know how I could of let you go."
This was stupid, I wanted her gone. But There was something in me told me to let her keep talking.
"If you are hoping I'll forgive you, I already have. I don't care anymore. But if your hoping I want to be with you still. Than no, that's not happening. I've moved on, I've found some one,"
I watch the hope in her eyes disappear, and it hurt a little. She looks at the floor and smiles. I watch her, surprised by her reaction. She looks at me,
"So who is she?"
"A girl I met at school," I answer, cautiously. She laughs, a ear pinching laugh. "Are you sure you can make her happy?"
I'm tooken back by her question.
What does that mean, 'are you sure you can make her happy?'
I don't say anything, just look at my hands.
Letting Amanda continue.
"I mean, don't get me wrong you were a great boyfriend. But of corse I had one reason I cheated on you." She says almost in a laugh, "You can't open yourself to anyone. I'm not even sure you loved me half the time we dated. And we dated for 2 years!" She scoffs, " I mean come on Finn! I know you have your parents marriage failure blocking you from every letting any one love you or letting any one know you love them. But Finn, that's a sad way to live. And if this girl is so special, you better tell her soon,"
As much as I hated it, every thing she said was true. I was terrified of love and showing my emotions. My parents marriage was the beginning of my fear of expressing love or any of my feeling a at all.
" It was nice seeing you Amanda, but I think you should go." I say as I get up and walk out of the room. Running my hand through my hair, I hear Amanda yell "You better express your fucking feelings Finn! Don't let her screw up and fuck your best friend again,"

I growl at her goodbye and flop myself onto the couch. Punching my pillows and screaming into the cushions.

I miss Gwen.....

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