can't go back..can i?

falling

Ming

Once Beam walked out of the door last night.
I lost it again.

Tasting him makes me more crazy.
I miss his kiss so badly.

And why the hell did he responded?
Or maybe i forced to much.

How i wish i can have hi  for real.
Make him mine for real.

Not in dreams.
Not in imaginations.

I am into girls
He is mh only exeption.
I find him cute, his dimples.
His smiles.
Shit!!!

Not again fantasizing him.
Last night i did.

Forgive me Beam.

I get my towel.

Ouch!!!
Freaking head ache.

I took my cold shower.

I wonder what time will  Forth come back.

I get on mh clothes and check on the update of the marshalls.

Case will be solved soon.

Wayo became famous again.
But this time bullied.
Last time was his piano performance.

I am hungry.
I get out of the room.

I run to the kitchen smell of good noodles welcomed me.

"Ramen." Beam said.
Sitting on his chair on the dinning table.

He stood and get bowl and served me.
There are bread and fresh greens in front of us and also fried eggs and bacons.

"Thank you" i said.

"I thought Forth and Wayo will have breakfast here. That is why i cooked.  But Wayo said they will come after lunch." He said.

When did he ever cooked for Wayo and Forth?

Today?

I tasted the ramen.

"Beam you made this?" I asked.

"No, i ordered it fron the Ramen nearby which is closed on Sunday morning maybe." He said sarcastically.

I laughed inside.

He makes good food.

He seldom cooks but when he cooks shit.
I fall for him even more.

"Itis good na." I said.

I eat more.

"Can i have a daily Ramen?" I asked.

He looked at me.

"No!" He said plainly and eat his food.

I  get some scumbled eggs and bacons,
He made the eggs well.

I wonder how his eggs taste like.
Fuck!

Shut my dirty mind up!

"Watcha gonna do today?" I asked.
Breaking the silent and wanting to have a conversation.

"I have netflix weekend plan. Movie marathon maybe."  He said lazily.

"Can i join you?" I asked.

"No!" He said.

"Come on Beam." I said.

I will start pursuing him now.

"Ming keep yourself to yourself like you always do and we will live in peace." He said.
Straightly towards my eyes.

But i am not convinced.

"Am i not a friend to you?" I asked.

"You see your best frjned and my best friend are in a conflict situation like as always, we should keep that way." He said.