can't go back..can i?

help?

Kit

What is this growing inside me.
I know what it is.
Insecurity and doubt?

I have not seen Wayo since that day. It has been more tha  a week.
I know Sharp since we where classmates senior high.

Beam js our third wheel during lunch.
He also seldom talks about their friends.

I am too nosy about the 5 of them since highsvhool but things changed now.

Phana gave me my lunch and sit beside me.

"Beam says he is snatched by the engineers so just the two of us for lunch na." He said.

I nooded.

I wanna kniw why but. Not my bussiness.

So ijust eat. Phan's hand wtapped my waist and pulled ne closer then whispered.
"Can i stay in your dorm tonight?" He asked.

I shook my head.

Last time he slept over we almost did it and i am not yet ready for it.

"Please na.." he whispered and pouting.

"No. Pha.. please.. na.., you can come but not allowed for sleepovers na." I siad.

"Then what about you sleep over to my apartment?" He asked.

I know Pavel, Beam and Ming lives with him. So..
"No bigger NO!" I say while shaking my head.

He sighed and kiss my head then eat.

He sulks all afternoon.
Beam asked me.

I acted innoscent.

But then after class. Pha silently drive us to my dorm.
He follows my steps and lazily sit on the couch.

We eat dinner and he is too serious.

I ignored it and sig in mh studies.

@10pm he kissed my cheeks and say his goodnightnthen left.
Just like that.

I took my shower then valled him.
By this time i know he is home.

He picjed it up.
I am home now na Kut.
He said.

"Good night na." I said.

Good night
He said and the call ended.

I do not want the call to end yet but it did. He is sulking and i have to fix this.

The following day.
He knocked onmmy door showing me food.
We eat breakfast.
Still he is sulking.

I sit on his lap and kiss his cheeks.
I did not say a word but hug him.
He hold on me and hugged me tighter.

He did not smike but his face is lighter.
The day of quiz filled and brain wrecking lessons ends.

Iam alone, for Phana said his goodbye after vlass and said he has to go to the aortment early.

But then i receive a photo.
That shakes me. Phana and Wayo in one frame.
But they are not alone and they are far from each other.

The photo is sent by Beam.
I thought you will come.

He texted.

I ignored it and hugged my pillow.

It was Phana Ming, Beam, Leam, Sharp, Pavel, Wayo and more of the people familiar faces but why my heart is angry at it. They are not literally alone and Pavel is hugging Wayo, like declaring to evryone.
To back off this guy is mine.