can't go back..can i?

how to tell Ming

Beam

I shut myself  when Ming and i reached back his unit.

"love, are you okay?" Ming asked.

How to tell him.

I rejected his offer.

I even said terrinle things.

But now i am the one who wants us get marry sooner.

He walked towards me and hug me.

"anything bothering you my love?" he asked.

I faced him.

"i love you" i said and kiss him. His hands run my back as we deepen the kiss and our kiss kiss rolls to our faces. His lips reached my neck and to shoulders. Back to my mouth.

His grip get tighter.
"love don't you want us cook dinner?" i asked

"we will later, for now.i want you Beam" he whisper my name.

"Ming,"i moaned.

"waht do you want Beam?" he asked.

I smiled and sucked his lower lips.

"Cook me some beffycheezy burger with grilled onions. And sweet pineapple bits"i said playfully.

His grip loosen but kissed me lovingly.

"okay i will coom your request" he said and pevked on my lips and weny in the kitchen.

"i'm gonna put the things i bought on the room na" i said.

"yeah" he responded. I grabbed the shopping bag and mh phone and went to my room and locked it hpget inside the bathroom and locked it also,

I dialed mom's number.

"mom.." i said i wanna cry for i need help.

"we knwo son, we will go the Dechapanyas tonight na, and we will offer bid. Do your best to win him if you really wants him." She said.

"but dad said inform us if your mind change before we go there" she added.

"but mom how?" i asked.

"go to him and man up Beramee. Ask him will you marry me, soon. Or tell him lets do it sooner." she said.
"hey wait" i heard dad.

"no son, it should be. Mingkwan Dechapanya marry me now" Dad said in commanding voice.
Guys seems like you will gt me into trouble." i said.

"calmdown son and face it. Drink all the pride and hesitations. You are not getting youngger na. If you really want it and ready for it then do it." Mom said.

"what if he rejects me" i said.

"tell us if he did we will pick you up and he will nevrr see a shadow of you" dad said.

I smirked.

But i hope he says yes. Vause i know dad is setious about keeping me and not making him him see even a shadow of me.

"thamks na i will go now" i said.

I put the phone off and starled seeing Ming standing near the door.

Did i locked the room?

Damn ofvourse he have the mastrr keys.

"who you where talking to?" he asked.

"my parwnts" i responded.

"about what?" he asked.

"theynare my parents Ming i updated them i have not talked yo the, nicely since the day i arrived from OJT" i said.

He pulled me and kissed me deeply then he grabbed my phone and chevked it.
"Ming, this is the first you did this waht is wrong with you" i asled.

"nothing is wronv with me, you just seems weird changed and hidding something form me." je said.

He looked deeply in my eyes.

"Beramee" he said.

"Ming you sounds like doubting me" i said softly.

He hugged me,

"i never doubted you" he said and kiss me.

"i am sorry" he said.

Hiw can i tell him now?

I just nooded.

"smile na, i wanna see the dimple smile na" he said.

I smiled sweeyly for hom.

"i live you" i siad.

He smiled also and kissed me.

"need help in cooking?" i asked.

"taje your rest na, but donot lock the doors" he said.

Impulled him for another kiss.

"imam sorry na Mingkwan" i said.

He smiled.

"i know you will tell me one of these days i am nit gonna force you na" he said.

I nooded he pecked on my lips.

"i will check on the paties now if they are ready for welldone grilling" he said.

I nooded and smiled.

I texted Wayo Ming's shade of green, and my shade of blue. Then yellow and white to break it.i want the arch on top of where we stand to give our vows. Blue and green leaves then light yellow light pink lavander and white tiny flowers Then  the rest of the decorations will be Ming's Green and my Royal blue.

Wayo responded wipith thumbs up.

He send me pictures of atches and inchoose two the entrance and the altar.

"that is it for tiday Beam but update me on skme and when i have time i will check on it" he messaged and i gave him thumbs ups.

Dad messaged me. "we had an apointment with them we will meet them for dinner wether soon or sokner or years to come. Our friendship with them is impkrtant" he said.

"i do not argue with that dad" i said.

I walked to the kitchen and i smeel grilling beef inside the electric griller. He need to be more carefullon using it. 

"what can i do live" i said.

He looked at me and smiled.

"come kiss me" he said.naughtily.

I get close to him and kiss his cheeks. He sjiled and keep what he is doing.
I peeled fruits i donot like veggies today but i like fruits. Cut them and placed them on the ref.

While i am doing that and while Ming is grilling, we sing some songs.

And i sudeenly asked. What is thencolor of your suit on ournwedding?" -

He smiled at me.

"White with touch of ekru." he said.

I nooded.

"what dish you want?" i asked.

Complete protein." he said. That means thee should be sea foods, beef, pork, fish and chicken.

"noted" i said.

He wlaked towards me and kissed me.
"are you planning our wedding without my consent?" he asked,

I laughed,

"then marry me next month with your consent" i said smilling.

He get my phone and dilaed Wayo.

"mung prepare invitation of Dechapanya nd Berame wedding you have a week to that and when done make sure the wedding happens in a month so you have 5 weeks mung 5 weeks to prepare the wedding" he said.

"yeah, for some details that would be easy see you and Bema in our unit lunch." he said and the call ended.

Ming went back to his cooking.

I am left sitting on the table stunned.