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ANDREA [2]

ANDREA'S POINT OF VIEW.

Bonnie loves Seth.

Seth loves Bonnie.

I love Seth too.

"So what about me?" — that's the question that keeps running in my mind. Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla ko nalang nagustuhan si Seth. Is it because of his smile? Is it because of his looks? His intelligence?

No.

It's because of Bonnie.

I hate Bonnie for having Seth in her life. I envy Bonnie for having someone like him. At hindi ako papayag na magkaro'n ng saya sa buhay ni Bonnie.

"Bakit hindi ka tumalon? Hindi ba't masakit?" I asked him back then, sa rooftop  kung saan siya nag-iisa after nilang mag-break ni Bonnie. I'm so amused that time dahil wala siyang alam na ako mismo ang nakipag-break sa kaniya. Back then, hindi niya ako nakilala.

There are two reasons why. First, it's because of my look. Bonnie and I doesn't have the same styles when it comes to hair and fashion. Kaya minsan, napagkakamalang baliw si Bonnie. Second, Seth is drunk that time. He just looked at me with questioning gaze, pero hindi niya tinanong kung sino ako.

Instead of asking who I am first, he asked,"I don't want to. What if she said that because she's---"

"Confused? She need space? She needs to refresh herself?" Pagputol ko sa sasabihin niya.  Tumango siya kaya agad akong napangisi.

"Hindi mo ba naisip na baka hindi ka talaga niya mahal in the first place?" I said. Sa puntong 'yon, tuwang-tuwa na ako dahil gumagawa nanaman ako ng istorya—the field I'm good at.

"She loved me. Minahal ako ni Bonnie," aniya.

"Bakit patago?" Saad ko sa mapang-asar na boses. Poor Seth, he doesn't even recognize me.

Tumabi ako sa kaniya habang tumitingin sa mataas na lugar. He tried to defend Bonnie pero palagi ko itong nasasalag. I can see how devastated he is that time. And knowing that I feel something for him, pakiramdam ko may kirot din akong nararamdaman.

I unconsciously shook my head.

'Yung kirot na nararamdaman ko ang magiging dahilan para matalo ako sa laro na 'to. I don't need anyone except for Sitri, so I don't need Seth.

And seeing him cry over Bonnie, I really feel disgusted. I don't need him. Sitri is all I need.

Dahil do'n, naisip kong magandang ialay si Seth kay Sitri. I can help him to remove the pain, and he can help me to get rid of my weakness.

"My name is Andrea. You can call me whatever you want. If you're not good in names, call me love," nakangiti kong saad. "Alam kong masakit diyan." Tinuro ko ang puso niya. "So if you will agree, kaya kong kuhain ang sakit na 'yan."

Pinaliwanag ko sa kaniya kung paano mawawala ang sakit. I convince him na tumalon sa mataas na lugar na 'yon.

"Ayokong mamatay," sagot niya dahilan para saglit akong matigilan.

"Hindi ka naman mamamatay. You just need to jump here, para makuha ko ang puso mo. In that way, mawawala na ang sakit na nararamdaman mo."

I thought it would be easy to convince him, but no. He didn't jump off. Natapakan ang pride ko dahil akala ko, pipiliin niya ang mas mabilis na choice para mawala ang nararamdaman niyang sakit. I underestimated him, dahilan para matamaan ang ego ko.

Yet I can't accept my defeat, so I pushed him. I'm a demon inside a human's body, kaya wala lang sa'kin 'yon. Hindi rin si Seth ang unang taong pinatay ko, pero may kakaiba akong naramdaman no'n.