Random K-pop One Shots {Hiatus}

Stray Kids Changbin- Break My Heart

"I'm not going to cry," you whispered to yourself while you were swinging on the swing in the park. It was raining, but you did your best not to cry. "I'm not sensitive. I'm strong. We're just friends. He sees us as friends. If he's happy, I'm happy." Although you loved Changbin, more than friends, he only you saw you as a friend. And he had just recently asked his crush out, becoming more distant to you. "I'm not a weak girl." And you've been trying to forget him. Well, your feelings for him.

You swung for a while before getting off and going home. When you arrived you were more than soaked. Thankfully, you lived with your pets. They were one of the only reasons that kept you going, from stopping you from not caring about yourself. Because if you couldn't take care of yourself, you wouldn't be able to be able to take care of them either. Your dogs ran up to you as you squatted down to pet them. To be honest, even your pets were worried for you. They could feel your sad energy. You took off your shoes feed your dogs, and got ready for a shower.

But as the shower water hit you, you couldn't help but breakdown and cry.

Why am I even crying over a boy? You asked yourself.

After the shower, and your hair was less wet, you grabbed your phone and checked it. And still, zero messages from him. You were the last one to leave him a message. Your small dog ran into the room and struggled to get on the bed, while the bigger one helped it up there and jumped onto the bed as well. You put your phone on the night stand and laid down while Seungmin, the smaller one got on my belly and fell asleep, and Yunho, laid down by my side. And with them in your embrace, you fell asleep. Who needs him? I got my dogs.

Your POV

I woke up, and carefully got out of bed, not wanting to wake my dogs up, and I got up for work. If I didn't have a shift today, I would've slept in. I worked at grocery store so that lessened my chances of meeting Changbin. But thinking of him, made my heart ache, it hurt so much. But that's one of the good things of hiding your feelings. They don't have to know that you felt more than friends, they don't have to know that their friends were hurting. But I guess that it's also my fault too. Just hiding how I felt. 

Some hours went by, and I was on break. I talked to some co-workers, and I was actually starting to feel better about my feelings for Changbin. But I just didn't want to let go. I just hoped it would be like the dramas and fanfictions where the boy realized that he made the wrong choice, or that he only dated another girl so he could forget his feelings for his best friend and goes to her and confesses. Maybe I wasn't the main lead, but in fact, the second lead. And we all know that second leads don't stand a chance. As much as I wanted him to confess, that wouldn't happen. Because this was reality. And it hurt knowing that deep down, I didn't want to let go and that he would never feel the same.

After my break was over, I went back to work. But luck wasn't on my side. Changbin and his girlfriend came to my lane for checkout.

"Oh hey Y/N," Changbin awkwardly laughs. "How have you been?"

I give a genuine smile. "I've been a bit busy." It was nice to see him again, but it hurt seeing him with his girlfriend. I look at his girlfriend. "When we were friends, he would talk nonstop about you. Meeting you now, he made the right choice."

She smiles. "T-thank you." She looks at him then back at me. "What do you mean by were? You guys aren't friends anymore?"

I widen my eyes. "Oh I said that? No, we're still friends, we just haven't talked in a while." By that, I meant almost a year. We talked a bit before they left. I couldn't help but feel a little jealous. She was really kind and nice. Maybe I was wrong. I just hate that I try to compare my life with the dramas hoping that she wasn't who she really was. And I shouldn't think that way. But I also noticed that Changbin felt a bit uncomfortable. Water was starting to fill my eyes, but I couldn't let that happen. At least not while I'm at work.