50 Reasons Why I'm Not Gay

-Hugo-

Hugo's POV:

I held back the tears brimming under my eyelids as I gripped the bag tighter.

I still couldn't believe what had just happened...

Varian had just.. just went nuts all over me and left us...

Left me.

His words echoed through my brain as I saw his angry face full of hate and rage, it was like nothing I've ever seen before and tore into me.

Quiet crying was the only sound in the background beside the loud replays in my mind.

Even the donkey was silent and concerned looking, which was saying something 'cause all it did was eat grass and look bored and done with life.

I was feeling pretty put out myself though even though I was hurting despite the struggle to dismiss his harsh actions and words.

What had I done to ensue that rage? That hate?!

Nothing!! I had done nothing to earn that.
Even though I knew that was technically true, a sudden pang of guilt went through me.

I was using him...

I shook my head, trying to get myself out of that pace that would make me screw everything over.

His dislike and rage wasn't because of those things... he had no idea... this was something else. Goggles just seemed to hate for really no good reason at all when I was just being myself.

I gritted my teeth and scoffed.
Whatever. That was his problem not mine, I had all the totems anyways so it didn't matter if he was with us or not.

Looking down at the pack in my arms I then turned toward the two younger people who looked distraught, "Pull yourselves together now, we got to get going.", I ordered, "We can't stay here in this shithole."

I then climbed back into the cart and grabbed the reins as Nuru stumbled forward and stopped me and Yong sat in tears.

"What do you think you're doing?! We're not leaving him behind!!!", she yelled angrily at me, "Have you lost your mind?"

"Listen here Princess...", I said impatiently, "He made it very clear we should continue on without him. Clear and simple.
So I'm doing what he wanted. We're leaving and going to the Eternal Library."

She snatched the reins from my grip and glared at me, "Do you really believe that Hugo?! Do you really think Varian, the one who's brought all of us together would abandon us and want us to leave him here? There's obviously something wrong and we need to go after him!!"

"Y-Yeah... I mean, I don't think Varian would ever be that mean!", Yong cried coming behind me, "We need to find out what's wrong! Maybe it's this town! Maybe that's the curse!!" He wiped his eyes roughly and looked determined, "We got to go find him Hugo!!"

I sighed and ran a hand over the bridge of my nose, "I swear guys, there's no curse on this place! Varian's just being a bitch, alright??
And listen Princess, I don't know if you got the jist of the whole situation, but Goggles hates me, hates all of us. It was only a matter of time with all our personality and issues anyway.
I don't blame him for wanting to leave us behind. So let's just move on Alright?!", I said angrily trying to regain the controls for our mode of transportation.

"NO HUGO!!", she said stubbornly slapping my hands away, "WE'RE NOT LEAVING WITHOUT HIM!!"

"Yeah!", Yong echoed.

I pushed her away roughly and snatched the reigns from her hands as she tried to regain balance, "Yes, we are." I stared at them coldly, "Just forget it alright?"

Nuru just stared at me, looking not only angry but disappointed in me. She then stood up, taking a shaky breath and holding onto Yong protectively, "You can leave. But we're staying."

"What?"

"You heard me.", she said jutting out her chin, "You can run off like I always knew you would if you want, but we are staying and finding Varian."

I then watched as she climbed off the wooden cart with Yong following after her, mist swirling around their ankles.

I looked down at her incredulously before shaking my head and laughing, "Damn, you really are an idiot!! You want to go after someone who doesn't want your help or sympathy and you expect it to work out!!
Don't be such a priss and just get back in the cart. Seriously, last chance."

Yong's eyes darkened, "We aren't coming... not without him.", he then took a deep breath, "I know you want to go after him Hugo... please don't leave and help us.", he tried to plead.

I stared at the two for several long minutes quietly, not quite knowing what to say, think or do.

I should just leave them behind anyway... that would be the most ideal solution. It would also eliminate any problems to opening the library for myself and betraying them all later.

But a small part of me didn't want to leave them in the dark and in the sticky air... it hit to close to home for my taste.

And grudgingly... I cared a little too much about Varian too...

So did I want to try to help? To stay? Of course I did...
Did I have a job? A mission that meant I shouldn't get attached? Yeah I did. And that was what was important.

I looked away from them, already having regret coursing through me as o tried to make myself focused on my purpose and my quest.

"Fine. Stay here... but you can't cry to me later, and you can't say I didn't try to make you come with me either.", I replied, "Good luck, 'cause you're going to need it with a hopeless stupid motive like that when you're trying to help a damned person who doesn't want it."

I then snapped the reigns, not looking at their most likely disappointed and disgusted faces.

Hey guys sorry for taking so long to update!! Have been insanely busy these past few months but I'll try to update this more!!