You Have Come To The Right Place ~ (Sixx: AM)

Chapter Seven

JAMES'S P.O.V:

Four days later

"James... We need to talk about your menus."

I can feel myself fidgeting in my seat, as Eliza looks at me with an expression that means business.

"Uhh...". I'm doing my best to hide my nervousness, but I'm failing pathetically at the moment. "What about them?"

"Well... I've been noticing a pattern..."

I can already feel the dread... I have a feeling I know what she's about to say, and I am not ready for this.

"You've been choosing similar, if not the same foods on all of your menus since you've been here."

I feel like I just got smacked in the face, and I totally did... with the fuckin' truth...

I can't even answer her. I'm just sitting here awkwardly trying to pretend this conversation isn't happening right now, but we all know I can't get away with avoiding anything... especially with the dietitian around...

"Am I wrong?"

Eliza is staring at me, and her eyes are about to burn a hole into my soul... My very exposed, uncomfortable, and avoidant soul.

I let out an awkward laugh, as I open my mouth to speak. "I mean... No..."

"Has anyone ever told you that variety is the spice of life?"

I've never seen my dietitian smile so big before until now, and there's a part of me that really has an urge to roll my eyes at her cheesy saying.

"Uh....". I raise my eyebrows. "No."

"Well, I'm here to tell ya..." Her smile gets wider as she speaks in an enthusiastic voice. "Variety is the spice of life!"

I... really can't handle being in this room right now. This is so cringe, and uncomfortable, and.... cringe...

I let out a light sigh, to keep myself from groaning, and decide to just cut to the chase so I can hopefully get outta here quicker.

"What are we gettin' at here?"

Eliza licks her lips before answering, with a smile on her face.

"You've been here for three weeks! It's time to start switching things up, James."

Fuck... See... I knew it.

I fucking knew it.

I can see her taking out a pile of menus, as she continues.

"Life is boring when we do the same thing all the time!"

Yeah... but it's also comfortable.

And...

Safe.

The dread that I felt earlier is just stronger now, because I knew that this was fuckin' coming... I didn't know when, but I'm smart enough to know that eventually someone was gonna confront me about this...

Why does it have to be right now though?!

"But...". I can feel myself beginning to protest, as the anxiety is creeping up inside of me. "I'm eating everything I choose... Why does it matter if I eat the same things?"

"Well..." Eliza pauses, as she looks at me. "There's lots of reasons, James..."

I can feel the tension in my body before she even starts listing the reasons off... Every time I go into a session... no matter what kind, I always want to fuckin' run away.