You Have Come To The Right Place ~ (Sixx: AM)

Chapter Eleven

JAMES'S P.O.V:

Day Forty-Two

10:00am

I just found out that Family Weekend is coming up, and everyone is trying to convince me to have Nikki and DJ come.

Part of me always has the urge to argue that they're not really family, but I think everyone knows how close the three of us are... The fact that we're in a band, and have gone through all of this shit together... Yeah, they're a family.

They're a special kind of family, and the staff here are very adamant about them being involved the way that actual families are.

I honestly didn't even know that Family Weekend was a thing that existed, but apparently it's something that the treatment facility has every other month... I must have just been so sucked into my own distorted reality that I didn't even realize...

That's actually really pathetic.

Anyway, since this facility really stresses the importance of having family and friends involved in the recovery process, they conduct three full days where your family comes to the facility and participates in groups, sessions, meals...

I'm just gonna admit that I'm a little anxious about the meal part, only because it's still really hard for me to have to eat in front of everyone here, even though I've been here for six weeks now. I still feel very exposed, raw, and vulnerable when I know other people see what I'm eating... How I'm eating... How long I'm taking to eat... My emotions during meals....

I don't remember the last time DJ or Nikki watched me eat anything... Hell, I don't remember the last time the three of us even ate anything together.

Apparently it's a huge deal around here, because ever since Rachel told me, I've been hearing everyone talk about it... All of the therapists have been frantically running around the place trying to organize everything. It's actually kind of amusing...

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8:30pm

I am really worried about DJ.

The whole time I've been here I feel like I've been left in the dark... It's hard being here because I don't know what's going on outside, ya know? Nikki and DJ come here to visit, and we'll talk on the phone, or FaceTime each other, but that's it. I don't see what goes on when they're not here.... Part of me wishes I could.

I'm fuckin' worried.

I've been worried, but now it's just worse, and it only gets worse every damn day because of the things I'm noticing. More and more keep popping up and I'm starting to really freak the hell out.

This isn't only about how DJ is acting... He's not himself, and his anxiety is through the roof, but we know that... That's not all anymore. Now it's also how he looks.

I FaceTimed him an hour ago, and I felt so goddamn uneasy because you should have seen him... I don't know... It could have been the lighting, but I really doubt it.

The dude looked white... Paler than he usually is, and I have a feeling he's not sleeping well... if he's sleeping at all. His eyes were glazed over the whole call, and I can just tell.

I know that somethings wrong.

I've been wanting to say something to him for the longest damn time, but I always get hesitant... Tonight I didn't... I tried to be subtle... I tried to make it casual.

"DJ... Did you sleep alright? You just... You don't look too good, buddy."

I felt like I needed to say something...