UNBLOCK MY MIND - the sequel.
Daniel and Ash were once challenged by the trouble that was their best friend, Zach Herron. Although Zach prayed in silence for a change in her heart, Daniel and Ash love for each other grew. As the new couple are get...
I've analyzed the entire ceiling. My body felt like it had gotten weaker. Like it was eaten within. I felt tired, wrapped in uncertainties of my condition. Daniel and the boys were on radio tour, all this timing was just-great, after everyone took great care of me the first week. He didn't want to leave me, but I told him it was okay. I told Tate I was fine, I told Bryana she didn't have to visit every day. I told everyone...I was okay. But.... It all felt like a damn game, trying to act big, but lying to everyone's face. My mom... was still in coma. Although they claimed she was out of life danger, the fair hadn't left my mind, that it could change.
I tell myself, don't go to sleep, don't stay up, don't concentrate, don't think. Everything was too much. Only time I'm in my mind, is when I'm all alone. I shoved my mom's accident to the side. I ignored it. Nobody even knew. My phone was broken, my own fucking fault. They were probably so worried. But the nurse didn't lean me an phone, I have used it maybe once or twice to contact Tate and Bry. She said that it was for the best, to not get visits, except for family. It was too exhausting she claimed. She was annoying, for not understanding, she said they could contact the hospital if they really wanted to visit. But It would tire me out, she argued.
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Come back...Daniel. I need you. Anyone come...please. I can't do this alone. I regret showing I'm not afraid, honestly being and feeling alone is too much. Before I made contact impossible by throwing my phone away, my loved ones; Daniel, Jack, Jonah, Gabbie, Bryana, Crawford, Zach etc. ...everybody told me I was strong. That I could get through this. But they didn't know - that I was hanging on the edge...at least it felt like I was. My mom - her situation, it reminded me of dad....I couldn't lose her too. I knew I said that I would be okay. But I lied...I didn't know if the drowning feeling would ever stop. I shouldn't be afraid, it's not strong. Don't show the fear, Ash. You'll be fine, don't lose focus.
I wish he was here to take my hand, and tell me I was going to be alright. So I wouldn't have to tell myself every damn night.
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The doctor knocked and sat down without a word. He stared for a while, then flipping his paperwork. "I know this disease brings a lot of mental challenges. There's no easy way to say this. It seems like it's spreading...fast. We...are afraid it's endangering your life, if it's going to reach your heart. You won't have long...Ash."
'The day of birth, death began to walk. It is walking toward me, in a hurry. Why in a hurry?'
