PLEASE MY MIND | Daniel seavey

EMBRACED BY HIM

There she sat, in silence, watching patients walk or roll by. Although I couldn't see her face, I felt her energy from miles away. She sat straight, elegantly, legs crossed and her hair tight in a messy knot. Dressed in hospital attire. It made me nauseas how she was dressed in clothes that screamed: I'm sick. Like a label. I was nervous to encounter her. I felt bad, but I guess she knew, that I would've been there for her, If ...If I knew. We could've gotten through it together. Zach instructed me to drive to the hospital today, where she had stayed weeks and weeks on end. Ridiculous, it was truly ridiculous. I was out with the band, doing shows, enjoying life. Not knowing she was dying. I was anxious all tour, we all were. But I knew I was going to be home soon. After that message, my body was filled with a unknown feeling of anger and confusion. I felt offended, that she didn't want anything to deal with me anymore. It was a hard pill to take, a pill I couldn't just take...not like that. But Zach explained her irritanional thinking and I could not blame her, even if I wanted too. It was completely understandable. I sighed, and walked towards the bench. A doctor joined her side and gave her a few papers. As he stood up, I quickly rushed towards her. 

Ash 

Two cold hands suddenly were placed on my shoulders. I jumped. Shivers went through my body as I met his eyes. A: "I-." He didn't say anything and jumped over the bench, throwing himself on me, holding me tight to his body. Loudly breathing in my neck. His hands crushing my bones. It hurted, but I ignored the pain. This feeling of warmth, was like home. Is like home. My dried tears replaced themselves yet again. I pushed him slightly back, I wanted to look in his eyes. A: "I'm sorry." He placed his finger on my mouth. D: "Stop, Ash, No. You have nothing...I repeat nothing to apologize for okay? I'm just so happy you're still here." He buried his head in my shoulder. I felt his thumbs stroking my hair. I let my body relax, putting my weight on his. I let go of the tension in my body. It felt like I melted away in his hold. D: "I wouldn't know what to do if you..." A: "Don't. I'm fine now." He stopped mid sentence and smiled, his hand now on my cheeks. His thumbs gently moving, it was comforting. The gap was so small, but we both couldn't help but just smile and stare in each other's souls. I wanted to kiss his lips so badly, but he beat me to it. The warmth of his lips touched mine. I threw my arms around his necks. Finally getting to wiggle my fingers to his hair again. I felt a tap on my shoulder. With rosy cheeks I turned around, my doctor gave me a bag with remaining medicine. Do: "You're officially released." I jumped in relief, but it quickly regretted that as my feet hit the ground. I giggled. Do: "Don't get ahead of yourself." He said, winking. A: "I have to get my stuff. And...get some clothes. Mm shit, my shirt is all dirty." Daniel smirked as he intertwined his fingers with mine, it gave me instant butterflies. The desire for him was something I missed. He leaned forward and whispered in my ears. D: "Guide me to your room." 

A: "Omg, no you can't walk half naked through the hospital." D: "As if I care!" He pulled his hoodie over his head and gave it to me. My only shirt was torn from rolling around on the ground that day. I threw it on. He smirked and inspected me. A: "What?" D: "Nothing." He giggled, he seemed very happy. I twirled around before the mirror. He stopped me, towering of my worn out tiny figure. He folded his arms, pulling me backwards. I rested my neck of his chest. Taking comfort in his presence. My legs were shivering a bit, still recovering from my walks. D: "If I need to carry you to the car. I'll be happy to do so."  A: "Oh no. I got this." I giggled, he nochantly opened the door for me, with his bare upper body. His defined arms, chest and abs made me wish for his body hovering over me, his lips kissing my body. I quickly shook my head, to keep it clear. I laughed at his nipples being hard, it was quite cold.