Unloving my First Love (First Love Series 1)

Chapter 17: Break Up

Dale

It's been a week since the last time I saw Chico. No text and no phone calls. Is he still mad? Kami pa din naman diba? It hurts to know how can he manage to ignore my text and calls the past days. I have limited allowance but I tried saving it so I can buy load and could text him and call him. I texted him and asked him kung kailan kami magkikita, that I missed and love him but his replies were short, "busy". No more I love yous and I miss yous. Hindi siya nagpapakita sa akin. I tried calling him many times, sometimes, he will answer, but he's always in  a hurry, pinuputol agad ang usapan. Nagsawa na ba siya? He would always tell me that he'll call or text me, but that didn't happen. Wala naman akong magawa kundi antayin siya.

Weeks quickly passed,  pero wala pa ding paramdam si Chico. Sinubukan kong magpunta sa bahay nila, but I only waited for hours. Sabi ng Dad niya, madalas siyang umuuwi ng gabi, one time nakainom. The usual Sunday mass that were together is no longer happening, minsan si Dax nalang or si Jerick ang kasama ko. Dax noticed it but I refused to tell him for now. Absent na din si Chico sa meetups ng barkada namin.

It's mid March, I didn't expect Chico, kaya naman nagulat ako nung sinundo ako ni Chico sa school. I'm with my friends - Annie and Jane, together with some male friends na malapit sa amin. I didn't know Chico will be here, sakto namang may pinaguusapan kami at pinagtatawanan ni Paul about our subject nung nakita ko si Chico. Nagpaalam ako sa kanila na hindi na sasama, they were planning to eat burger at Cindys, but because Chico is here, I can't join them anymore. Chico glared at Paul bago ako hinawakan sa kamay para makauwi na kami.

Nakarating kami sa bahay ng di nagkikibuan. I don't know how to approach him. Nasasaktan ako na ganito siya kalamig sa akin. I was about to say something but he started a conversation.

"Explain", sabi ni Chico. Just one word, I knew bakit na naman siya ganito. Nagseselos na naman. Nakakapagod na din yung pagseselos ni Chico. Ngayon na lang nagpakita ganito pa siya kalamig sa akin.

Sa napapagod na boses, I answered him. "Chico naman.......", I heavily sighed. Why is he like this?

"Chico nalang huh? Okay". he looked at me again na parang maling mali na di ko siya tinawag using our endearment. I wanted to talk to him but he cut me off, "Pumasok kana sa loob, uuwi na ko". At iginiya nga niya ako papasok ng bahay at nung nakapasok na ako, I saw him walked away from our house. He just left.

I wanted to hug him, I wanted to talk to him, I wanted to have my love back but he wouldn't let me. Iniwasan pa niya ako lalo. Is this the end of us? My heart breaks just thinking that we might break up. As much as I wanted to continue chasing him, I have to study too and do my responsibilities in our school.

The week after I received a text message from his Father asking me if I can go to their house. It's already the end of my class, so I went there, only to find out that Chico is drank again. Sinisigaw yung pangalan ko, paulit ulit habang langong lango.. nakahiga sa sofa. Galit na galit yung Dad ni Chico sa kanya, he even slapped him pero hindi tinablan man lang si Chico, I have to tell his Dad that he got jealous and explain to him our misunderstanding. Nakakahiya man, but that's my only way to save my Chico from his father's wrath.

 I stared at him and touched his face, nagsimula na naman siyang maglitaniya, habang parang may inaabot. "Babe, babe, mahal kita", "Dale ayaw mo na sa akin", "babe koo, mahal kita....". He keeps on repeating those words as if his life depend on it. I cried hard seeing him like this till his breath calmed down as a sign that he drifted to sleep. I went home with a heavy heart, hindi pa din kami nagkaayos ni Chico.

I thought we will be okay after. After hearing that he still loves me, I have high hopes that we could talk. But he still chose to ignore my text and calls. This time he won't text me back. Ganun ba siya kaselos? Ganun ba siya kagalit? And again, I tried my luck, and waited for hours sa bahay nila Chico, pero hindi siya umuwi ng maaga.