Unloving my First Love (First Love Series 1)

Chapter 16: Jealous

Dale

When did I start to love you this much? I don't know when but what I know is that I love you so much each passing day. These are my thoughts now that we are together again because it's weekend. He discovered his new hobby and gained new friends who have the same interest - skate boarding. I am not in favor of it kasi delikado but he assured me na magiingat siya palagi.

Chico has always been caring and thoughtful, he gave me the security that I need. Everytime that I feel insecure because he is older than me and he might find another girl, he would tell me how much he loves me. Masyado din akong inaalagaan ni Chico na nasanay na ako, I felt like a baby pag andiyan si Chico, maski lahat ng gagawin ko ay kailangan munang alam ni Chico, he is not the demanding type but I prefer doing it because that's how I also respect him and our relationship, maski ata period ko alam nitong taong to. My goodness!, paano niya nalaman? it's because I don't want to see him nung masakit ang puson ko because of menstruation!, ang kaso mapilit ang isang 'to, from that day on, alam na niya kailan ako meron. May mga bagay din na kailangan ko ipagpaalam kay Chico, like if I have extra curricular activities, kung aalis with classmates and if hindi kami magkikita. For me it's fine, kasi ganun din naman si Chico sa akin.

The past months, we may not see each other everyday but he made sure that we are together during our monthsaries and special occasions. We have petty quarrels na hindi naman tumatagal, laging nagpapakumbaba si Chico. He chose to understand me kahit minsan may pagka isip bata ako. He became more intimate too, bigla nalang akong hahalikan if there's a chance. Hindi lng simple smack, he's eating my lips! But I'm glad, he knows our limitations. He knows when to stop.

We're going 2 years this year when I entered HS. Kung meron mang nagbago, yun yung sobrang mahal ko si Chico. Lumipat din si Chico ng school sa malapit kahit 4th year na siya, nagretire na din kasi ang Mom nya, it's an early retirement and she chose to teach college in another school near here. So there are times na sinusundo niya ko. Ako palang ata sa mga kaklase ko ang sinusundo ng boyfriend! Pambihira. Nakakahiya specially when Chico would possessively hold my hand, minsan naman nakaakbay agad. Ako nalang yung nahihiya, we are just teenagers, pero ang isang ito, akala mo mag-asawa na kami makayapos!. But I also learn to love Chico's possessiveness, at maging ang pagiging strict niya. I learned to embrace it too. I didn't see it as his flaws, mahal lang siguro talaga ako ni Chico.

I'm already in High School in a private school - sa kapatid ni Tito Jimmy. Nakabalik na din sila Tito Jimmy from US kaya naman mas lalo akong naging maingat sa relationship namin ni Chico. I can't tell Tito Jimmy yet, ayoko siyang madisappoint katulad ng naramdaman niya kay Ate. High School life is really different, you'll get to meet new friends, dito yata kayo magiging solid talaga ng mga magiging kaibigan mo and you get to know your potentials too. Kung ano yung interes mo. I'm lucky to meet new friends na unang pagkikita palang namin, para na kaming matagal na magkasama - that's Annie and Jane. I also gained male friends, pero mas madalas kaming magkakasama ni Annie and Jane. Dahil mas malapit ngayon ang school ko sa bahay, mas madali akong nasusundo ni Chico, nagingat ako with male friends kasi makikita niya if may lalaki akong kadikit. Ayoko ng nagseselos si Chico, masyadong masungit. I learned my lesson nung time na nagselos ulit siya kay Dax. I know I'm at fault dahil hindi ako nagpaalam pero sobrang init ng ulo ni Chico, gusto pang sugudin si Dax! Kundi ko pa napigilan, malamang friendship over na kami ni Dax. Inexplain ko naman kay Chico and later on kumalma na din siya.

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Because I can sing, I decided to join the school band for the acquaintance party, ang sabi magpeperform kami with Put3ska band - pinoy local band. Napa oo ako bigla, without consulting Chico first. Hindi pa ko nakapagpaalam pala, saka ko nalang naalala. Hindi naman kontra si Chico sa mga activities ko, gusto lang niya magpaalam ako sa kanya. We had our first band meeting today, at 2 lang pala ang babaeng sumali, parehas kaming vocalist. The rest who will handle the instruments ay mga lalaki who are from higher year. I think I have to explain it to Chico. So that's what I did when weekend came. Hindi niya kasi ako nasundo the past days.