Unloving my First Love (First Love Series 1)

Chapter 11: Friends

Dale

At a very young age, I've been trained to handle my emotions accordingly. Kaya nga mas matured akong magisip compared to others na kaedad ko lang plus the fact that I look like a first year HS student already, siguro nakadagdag yun. My mom trained us not to depend on others and stand on our own but we ended up depending too much on Tito Jimmy and his family when it comes to sponsoring our school. I realized that I also depended too much with Dax, importanteng importante siya sakin that's why if he's not around, I can't help but to long and look for him. He's my comfort zone. I also liked being with Marites. Lahat ng mga taong ito, mahalaga sakin. They gave me positive outlook.

Despite being broken because of my family, I also learned to the have positive disposition in life and masked myself all the time with happiness. Not that I'm pretending though, it's just that I wanted to embrace happiness and be energetic all the time to forget whatever problems we have at home. That's how I get through everyday. I met friends along the way, friends who have accepted me despite my background, despite everything and that made me happy too. When I finally accepted that I can't be friends with someone within Jolly's league, that's when Dax came and the rest of our friends. I am thankful that Marites was with me too, pero sadya yatang mapaghanap ang tao, the lack of parents attention made me crave for more friends. Noong narealize ko din ang pagka crush kay Chico, I realized I am greedy. Naging kaibigan ko na nga gusto ko pa maging crush? How pathetic it can be, right? Kaya nga pinilit kong lumayo sa kanya muna and go back with the idea to just be friends with him. Maybe his feelings for me isn't what I'm thinking. 

Nagsimula na nga ang pasukan. I am too excited to see Marites of course, at last!  Pagpasok ko ay agad kong hinanap ang pangalan ko sa Grade 5 section 1B pati na din ang kay Marites. Pero wala dun ang pangalan namin parehas. Yearly kasi ay Section 1B kami. I am not sure if it's a pattern or what pero sa section na yun kami parati napupunta. Good thing, na hindi pa kailanman kami naghiwalay ng section ni Temar, mukhang ngayon palang. Pinagpatuloy ko ang paghahanap til I saw my name written under Section 1A. Pero wala pa din ang pangalan ni Marites, but I saw 2 familiar names - Rowell and Ericson. Bakit naman kaya ko nalipat ng section? I felt a little relief kasi hindi ko na classmate ang group ni Jesse, sa wakas!. Isang hilera lang naman lahat ng rooms ng grade 5 kaya naman I decided to look for Marites pero wala siya maski pangalan niya ay wala dun sa mga listahan sa labas ng pinto. Kinakabahan ako, why she isn't here yet. Wala kaming way to communicate but the last time we talked before the school year ends, we agreed na magkikita kami ngayong pasukan. maybe late enrollee? With that thought ay  bumalik na ko sa pila. Unlike previous years na makakapasok kana sa classroom, ngayong taon, we have to wait for our names to be called before makapasok.

The school bell rang at isa isa na kaming pinapasok ng class adviser using our names. Yung upuan namin ngayon ay single with armchair unlike before na dalawa kayo sa isang kahoy na upuan. nakalinya ng maayos ang mga upuan at nakahilera by 2's. Akala ko magkakatabi ang babae pero hindi pala. So ang katabi ko ay lalaki. Okay lang naman din sakin kasi wala akong kakilala dito. Si Rowell and Ericson naman ay minsan ko lang ata nakausap dati. Nagpakilala na ang bawat isa sa amin. I met few within the range of my seat too. Ito namang katabi ko na Albhy ang pangalan ay nanatiling tahimik. He rarely talk, mapapanisan pa ata ko ng laway. Our class adviser seems to be a cool teacher, she cracked jokes while telling us her classroom rules. Madami siyang reminders. Nagelection din ng officers kasi karamihan dito ay galing sa Section 1A last year, matatalino ang mga nandun, I'm wondering bakit ako napunta dito  Nakikinig naman ako but I can't get Marites out of my mind. Asan na kaya ang bruha?

As per our class adviser ay half day lang kami today and regular class na simula bukas, Grade 5 and Grade 6 teachers ay required daw kasi pumunta sa Division Office after lunch for an important meeting. Nagka idea tuloy ako na puntahan si Marites after class. Btw, hindi na kami nagservice ni Chris ngayong taon, dahil nga wala dito sila Tito Jimmy sa bansa ay pansamantalang stop ang school service kaya naman sasakay na lang kami ng tricycle papuntang school at maglalakad ng kaunti. Mabuti nalang din kasi hindi ko mapupuntahan si Marites kung andiyan ang service. Palabas na ko ng school ng may makita akong kakilala, kasali 'to sa kabataan eh pero hindi masyadong active nung summer.