Unloving my First Love (First Love Series 1)

Prologue

"Let's break up for good Dale". Chico's word stunned me. It took me a few minutes to recover and tried to respond. He is telling me to break up but all I can see is hurt and sadness in his eyes. He should be happy, that's what I wanted to see. I know he liked my friend for months, nararamdaman ko. Madaming monthsary namin ang nakalimutan nya since Nov last year. We're too young for it anyway but for the past 3 years, I am happy that we celebrated simple monthsaries and anniversaries. But that changed recently. He became distant just because he is mad at me. We have the same circle of friends and I noticed that he became more close with Glai, isa sa mga babaeng kaibigan namin. I am not jealous about it though, mas seloso kasi siya. Mas madami kasi ang lalaking kaibigan namin kesa babae. Even my bestfriend Dax, di nakatakas sa pagseselos nya. I don't understand his jealousy sometimes. I think we're too young to be this serious but iba ata si Chico. I am his first girlfriend, he is my first too. He is almost 3 years ahead of me and we never thought we'll end up being in a serious relationship that will last for more than 3 years.

I blinked my eyes multiple times not wanting to cry. I don't want him to see me crying.

"Let's break up, Dale". Ulit nya.. he heavily sighed. Malalim na buntong hininga bago nagsalita ulit. "Tapusin na natin, matagal mo ng gusto to diba, ayaw mo naman talaga sakin. Ayaw mo naman talaga to". For some reason, nagulat ako sinabi nya. Pano kami tumagal ng  more than 3 years kung ayaw ko. I know it's just a puppy love since we started young but I knew I love him. I cared so much for him. I changed because of him. Mahal ko siya, siya lang.

I was about to protest and open my mouth to say something but I chose not to lalo ng nakita ko si Glai na nakatingin samin. Nakakunot ang noo at malamang curious sa kung ano ba ang pinaguusapan namin.

Tumingin ako kay Chico bago yumuko at dahang dahang pumikit at tumango. Ayokong makita nyang nasasaktan ako. Kaya tinaas ko ang tingin ko sa kanya para magpantay ang mata namin.

"Okay". Usal ko. Dumaan ang sakit sa mga mata nya bago nagiwas ng tingin..nakita ko ang pamumula ng kanyang tenga. One word, I knew that we're over.

I was about to turn my back, ako nalang ang unang aalis but I heard him sigh. Sobrang lalim.

"Okay". Pangagaya sa kung paano ko iyon sinabi. Tumawa sya pero hindi himig masaya.

Nauna na siyang tumalikod at sinalubong sya ni Glai na may nagtatanong na mga mata. Palipat lipat ang tingin sa aming dalawa. I just stood there looking at his back, walking away from me for the first time. I don't remember any instance na nauna syang tumalikod sa akin kahit galit pa siya, naramdaman kong namanhid ang aking puso ko at sobrang sakit.

Tinaas ko ang tingin ko sa langit upang hindi maiyak, it's almost 6pm at kailangan ko ng umuwi. Tiyak hinahanap na ko ni ate.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago ko naibulong sa wakas "I love you Chico, you will always be my first love, my love. I wish you'll be happy kahit di na ako"

That's how my summer ended. It's just mid April but I felt summer ended there. The 15 years old me walked away from our most memorable place and promised myself that I won't come back there anymore.