Roommates

chapter 41

I looked over to Lee and felt a pint of nervousness slip into me.

"What?  Is my hair messed up?" I brought my hand to the new lace frontal on my head and ran my fingers through the straight hair.

"I can't look at you, mama?" Lee continued to look down at me and smiled.  I sucked my teeth and rested on his chest again, only to hide the goofy smile from the flutters he just caused.  But, I was too late, I don't even know why I bother at this point, he already knows the effect he has on me.

We're sitting outside, with a clear view of the luminous moon and the stars scattered around it in a maze-like pattern.

We mutually decided to never buy each other stars.  I was sure we'd lose it and we aren't sure of the real value of it.

POV by Ariana Grande played lowly from my speaker, I really can't stop playing it. I think the song represents our relationship perfectly.  

"How many times are you going to play this song?" Lee laughed and pulled me closer to him.

"As many times as I need, it kinda reminds me of us," Lee began to listen to the lyrics, but I restarted it to give him the full experience.

By the time the song reached the chorus, Lee looked back at me and nodded.

"Okay, okay, I'm starting to see it," he looked towards the sky and continued to listen to the song.

When the song reached the end, I began to lip sync the chorus.  

"I wanna love me, the way that you love me," I held Lee's hand and looked at the stars with him. "For all of my pretty and all of my ugly too."

I'd love to see me from your point of view.

I wanna trust me, the way that you trust me.

'Cause nobody ever loved me like you do.

I'd love to see me from your point of view.

We silently enjoyed each other's company until Lee spoke up.

"Sometimes, I do wish that you could see yourself the way I do," Lee ran his fingertips up and down my upper arm as he thought. "Then you'd be able to see how strong and worthy of love you are." 

I gave him my undivided attention. 

"But that's something we can work on together, we have time," I smiled and gave Lee a quick kiss.

More thoughtful silence fell upon us, but I was the one to break it this time.

"Lee, about our tattoos.  I feel like you should get the sun and I should get the moon now."

"Yeah, I think I give off sun energy," I laughed and rested on his chest again.

We sat in comfortable silence and listened to the light traffic and natural sounds of nature.

I believe that I'll be able to love myself the way Lee does one day, maybe even more.  Life is a constant journey, and after a long struggle, I can confidently say I don't want to give up on mine.

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Final filler chapter :((

R: I have lakes with no water, mountains with no stone and cities with no buildings. What am I?

A: A map.

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