As the World Caves In

resignation to the end

Skye

    I feel safe as he fondles my face but I can't stop thinking whether or not this was caused by  the love potion we were making or if it's real. "Shouldn't we umm maybe get some fresh air?" I ask him with our faces being only centimeters away. His smiles faints as he answers "Yeah maybe we should" he gets up from the bed. He faces his bedroom window, opens it and says "Come on" as he reaches his hand out for me to grab. I grip his hand and we step outside on to the roof. The beautiful night sky reminds me of the times Dray and I used to star-gaze. Maybe it's a bad idea: George and I. If You-Know-Who finds something out to attack Harry, George might be in the way and then I wouldn't hesitate to save him but I'd have to keep up the facade that I'm on the Dark Lord's side as long as I can and change sides in the right time. "How come Harry isn't here? He always spends the break here, doesn't he?" I change the subject to ease the tension. "Oh omm yeah he does but he had to go to a safer place because of You-Know-Who" he explains in short. "Did he do something to him?" I ask worried. "No he's fine, it was my dad... but we shouldn't talk about this" he responds firmly. "We might have to go to the safe house too..I don't know if you can come" he looks at me heartbroken. That's the reason we wouldn't work I think to myself. They're hiding Harry from the Dark Lord and I obviously can't go to that house because they don't trust me with that information and they're probably doing the right thing. Even though he brings me so much joy I can't put Georgie in harm's way and I can't expect them to tell me their secrets and plans about defeating You-Know-Who. "Oh that's alright." I say unbothered but there's some sadness in my voice as I'm looking at the sky. "No it's not!" George raises his voice unexpectedly which makes me jump a bit. "They shouldn't treat you like you're not on our side! They pretend that they accept you when you're around but I know what they think! You must be a spy or something blahblah I'm so fed up with it! You're in Dumledore's Army for Merlin's sake, you should know ab-" he says with anger but someone yells at us "What do you think you're doing on the roof George?" I hear Mrs. Weasley's voice and when I look down I can see him standing outside looking at us. "Nothing mom, it's fine" George responds contentless then stands up and starts walking toward his bedroom window. He looks back at me and gives me his hand, I reach out for it and grab it loosely. He grabs my hand making sure I don't slip when I stand up. As I get up he pulls me in closer "You almost slipped" he says to me softly. "Thank you" I look into his eyes searching for an answer: should I risk everything for him? Unfortunately I can't find the answer to that question in his eyes but I sink into his brown iris. "Did you clear your head?" he asks and I look at him confused does he know what I was thinking about? He sees my discomfort so he continues "The probable effects of the love potion?" I really thought he could read my mind for a second. "Oh! Yeah, I'm better" I faintly smile at him. We get back to his room "We didn't even finish the potion..." George states and I instantly know what he means we couldn't have been under the potion's effect. "I should umm probably get back to Ginny, she's been looking for me after all." I can't even look at George as I'm saying it. I head for the door to get out of his room but he says "Hey Skye! I still have your necklace" and in his hand is the snake necklace that I got from Draco last Christmas as a gift. I don't know if I should reach for it and take it or leave it in George's hand. I don't want to play with his feelings but I don't even know what I'm feeling so to make things easier I slowly reach my hand out and grab the necklace "Thanks" I say softly with pain in my voice then turn around and I can feel teardrops forming in my eyes. But I walk away, not looking back, headed for Ginny's room. "Skye! I've been looking for-" she says excitedly but when she sees my face she can tell there's something wrong. "I can't do this" I say as my voice cracks and I fell down on the floor. She rushes to me "Hey, what's wrong?" she hugs me as I sob uncontrollably. I've never cried in front of any of my friends before, it feels weird: being this open in front of another person. "Did he hurt you? Cause if he did I'm gonna shove my wand so far up-" she starts getting up which makes me giggle. "George didn't do anything" I look at her with tears running down my face. "Yeah somehow I don't believe that with you looking like that." she says confidently. "No, it really is fine. I mean he is I'm not. I'm not supposed to be here..." I say softly as I reach the decision. "Don't say that! You're.. well you're part of the family" she says with honestly and happily trying to cheer me up. "Yeah but that's the problem. I'm not supposed to be. It's dangerous." I raise my voice because I'm mad at myself. "Look I'd do anything to protect you and I know you'd do the same but don't get that idea inside your head that if you leave that'll protect us. You being here is what we need! It's what George needs to not go insane. It's what I need, a true friend. So please Skye don't go!" she makes her point. I wipe my tearsaway, quickly drop the enchanted coins on the bedside table and hug her tightly. "Thank you Ginny!" I say greatfully to her. "Just promise me you won't leave me" she says softly as my bracelet lights up after I clicked the button on it. "I'm really sorry Ginny. It's for the better good." I whisper gently to her. She breaks off the hug to look at me, she holds onto my shoulders not letting me go "You don't have to do this." she says simply. I look at her not saying anything hoping she would forgive me. And in the next moment I hear my brother as he apparates next to me "Hey what's wrong Skye?" he puts his hand on my shoulder reassuringly. "We have to go" I say while still looking at Ginny. My brother reacts quickly and with a swish of his wand all of my stuff is now in my luggage. "I'm doing this for you guys" I say softly to her quaveringly. "But you don't HAVE to!" she screams out of pain which causes George to open her door and take a look inside "Is everything oka-" he asks but stops when he sees me with red eyes and my brother next to me with my luggage in his hand. "Please forgive me Georgie" I say to him as a teardrop runs down my face. Then I take my brother's hand to apparate. "Wait Skye--" I can see him coming towards me wanting to say something more but when I blink we're already at Windy Gates. I hope they understand. I did this for them, to protect them.