Just Some Poetry

torn apart

i hurt her once again
i hurt what I swore to protect
i am the reason for her hurting
how can she even love me?
i am the worst that could have happened to her
that perfect girl
and my imperfect self
she will leave
soon
there is no other way
soon she will realize what my true face is
that my interior is just as ugly as my exterior
even though she doesn't see it now
she will leave
and it would be best for her
why doesn't she realize it?
why?!
you gotta leave!
i will hurt you!
and then you will hate me...
now please
GO AWAY!
leave me alone
take away my reason to stay
let me die
you know i don't want to live
let me die in peace
i don't want to hurt you
but i will.
no
stay with me
don't leave me alone like everyone else does
i have trusted you
i have shown you
my darkest colours
my dullest feelings
my deepest abyss
how could i love anyone else
after you?
how could i go on
after you?
but i would deserve this
and i know
that you would feel so much better
with someone else
leave me!
before it's too late
please stay!
i beg you
don't let me alone with the darkness
i suffer
I SUFFER!
and i'm afraid
oh i'm so afraid
take my pain
free me
i beg you